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::Fotos::

Monday, July 31, 2006

I juz don't understand y... todae my life juz turned upside down totalli... juz within one nite everything juz changed... my mind is in a mess... it's jammed wif a lot of things tat i myself also don't noe wat am i tinkin abt... i'm juz not tinkin todae n everything is juz so out of position...

early in the morning, i forgot to bring my peak cap to camp n ended haf to sneak around to avoid ssm... then reach classrm, i realised i didn't even close my bag properly b4 i walked out of my hse... by then, i'm already quite dead... throughout e day, e brain is juz freeze there... i was trying to help out in the painting work, ended up i juz realised i'm stoning one side... i tink my cse IC realised smthing is wrong wif mi, so left mi one side... during e painting, i got stepped by my fren three times n hit by the pole also... juz don't noe is pure unlucky or i'm nt alert enough... after painting, my cse IC gave my briefing to all of us... there r a lot of impt things i tink but nth went into my mind... my brain juz feel veri loaded, can't absorb anything... after tat, i juz hastily went home...

along e way home, i juz don't feel correct... so after reach home, i straight go for a run... did almost sprinting throughout 1/3 of my usual running route then walked throughout e rest... tink running is e onli way to keep my mind free frm all e thoughts, cause during running i will onli tink abt e running pace n breathing, nth else... it was great during e run, especialli along my favourite peacefully road... on e way back home i saw siva jogging... tat's rare, had a short chat then return home... now i'm gathering all my thoughts n sort them out one by one... i juz noe tat, no matter how screwed up my life is, i still haf to face it n solve it... everything is juz a matter of time...

Ich vermisse dich left a note at 8:12 PM

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