Rayze

Sian

2007-08-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

I passed my test yesterday!! but i'm still not going back, gonna stay here longer. haiz.. happy to pass but sad that i have to stay longer here. *shake head* today is my first day entering the new module but everything is cancelled due bad weather. unlucky.. really can't wait to go back. did an estimation, i should be back within 7weeks. hopefully.. pray ah pray.. =p

Update

2007-08-21T21:32:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. i'm lucky to still able to log in my blog account. haha. more than one year never update this blog. time to try reviving my blog but i doubt anyone will be reading now. i guess most of ur will assume my blog is gone alr. =p

Anyway, many things happened within this one year. now i'm stuck in australia, still waiting to go back. tentatively i'm supposed to go back by 15th october. if everything goes on smoothly, it shldn't drag i hope.. haha. as for people who r wondering how am i doing here, i can't answer ur here. maybe come ask me personally. =P haha..

Hmm.. will try to update this blog as much as poss. at least ur will know i'm stil alive. haha.

Dating

2006-08-09T11:11:00.000+08:00

Hm... I realised i'm getting more n more lazy to update my blog. LOL. however todae is holiday and i got nth to do, so juz update a bit. e past one wk is realli fun. thanks to my wisdom tooth, i got a long break. spent 5 days out of e wk wif dear which is kinda unexpected cause some are last min decided to meet out one. maybe is juz wan to meet out as much as possible now, knowing tat next few wks she needs to concentrate on her studies.

Ok, give a brief talk abt wat i act did for e past few days. fridae i was down to sch to dear cause she ended sch veri early. 12 smthing finish sch, realli gd life. don't recall i got end lesson so early. LOL. also got meet up mr lau for a short lunch talk. he shocked me wif his 'bmt-recruit' hairstlye!!! at first i thought is cause of his army but act is for the cancer programme. as usual, mr lau is the kind-hearted man. act i feel like doin tat also, but i don't tink my unit will allow. LOL. remind me of my botak during council camp. wahaha. oh ya, also on tat day i realise my dear always attracts funni noisy kids. they r everywhere, LOL.

sat, went to funan to buy my new camera wif dear. we spent 5hrs walking around e whole mall. i tink we explored every single corner in funan already. LOL. but at least we did smthing within e 5hrs. we made a very interesting present for TL birthdae, a bottle of sweet wif sunflower. sounds simple but we crapped a lot meanings to e present to make it sounds impt. ha. afterall is the thoughts tat count :P besides e present, i got my new cam!!! bought e exilim S600, quite nice :) costs mi 600 bucks :( after shopping, we had sakae wif e svc carnival committee memebers. n tat's e time when idiot TL they all flooded my tagboard in e vip rm. arghhzzz...

hmm... supposed to be short talk but ended up i got a lot to type. LOL. ok, shld stop here n take rest. readers also will feel tired readin long entry.

Wisdom Tooth

2006-08-03T13:55:00.000+08:00

Yest got my wisdom tooth plucked out. did a local anesthesia, which is juz numb e operation area. so throughout the process can know wat is happening. lots of drilling, cracking n plucking. lucky tat e dentisit is quite skilful so everything is still ok. e whole thing is quite fast, i tink within 30mins already plucked out two. good.

after op, was told to stay at home n rest, no exercise at all cause it may cause more bleeding at e guma area. apparently i haf to bite some cloth thing to stop e bleeing. but i changed 4,5 times already, e bleeding still doesn't stop. after 5 hrs, e anesthesia is almost gone so biting actualli makes my gum feels more painful so gave up biting. surprisingly my wound stop bleeding by itself (-_-"')

then i didn't listen to doc advise, i went out :P cause my dear is having a veri bad stomach, so decided to go down sch n acc her home. ended we went shopping around for her fren present. LOL. but in e end, we didn't get anything also. ha.

now i got a swollen right cheek, LOL. guess it's juz normal. anyway, it's not so pain now, at least no need to depend on painkiller. no nice to depend too much on painkillers. hope tml e swelling will recover. tml i still got an interrogation to go. LOL.

Upside Down

2006-07-31T20:12:00.000+08:00

I juz don't understand y... todae my life juz turned upside down totalli... juz within one nite everything juz changed... my mind is in a mess... it's jammed wif a lot of things tat i myself also don't noe wat am i tinkin abt... i'm juz not tinkin todae n everything is juz so out of position...

early in the morning, i forgot to bring my peak cap to camp n ended haf to sneak around to avoid ssm... then reach classrm, i realised i didn't even close my bag properly b4 i walked out of my hse... by then, i'm already quite dead... throughout e day, e brain is juz freeze there... i was trying to help out in the painting work, ended up i juz realised i'm stoning one side... i tink my cse IC realised smthing is wrong wif mi, so left mi one side... during e painting, i got stepped by my fren three times n hit by the pole also... juz don't noe is pure unlucky or i'm nt alert enough... after painting, my cse IC gave my briefing to all of us... there r a lot of impt things i tink but nth went into my mind... my brain juz feel veri loaded, can't absorb anything... after tat, i juz hastily went home...

along e way home, i juz don't feel correct... so after reach home, i straight go for a run... did almost sprinting throughout 1/3 of my usual running route then walked throughout e rest... tink running is e onli way to keep my mind free frm all e thoughts, cause during running i will onli tink abt e running pace n breathing, nth else... it was great during e run, especialli along my favourite peacefully road... on e way back home i saw siva jogging... tat's rare, had a short chat then return home... now i'm gathering all my thoughts n sort them out one by one... i juz noe tat, no matter how screwed up my life is, i still haf to face it n solve it... everything is juz a matter of time...

Greatest Moment

2006-07-30T12:26:00.000+08:00

Juz post to say how lucky n happy i am to haf u in my life. but it's juz beyond description =) miss ya!

To go or not to go?

2006-07-24T12:33:00.000+08:00

Haiz... now got no more volunteer work to do... life seem more sian now... i got mix feelings after finishing the carnival last sat... realli wish to continue on but i noe i muz prioritise... career obviously is e most impt now for mi... i can't afford to lose tis chance to get such a great career... seriously, it's realli sad to leave volunteering cause i may not haf anymore chance to do it again... though it's juz a short one n a half year in volunteering, i learnt a lot... it's a veri enjoyable experience, smthing tat i can't find elsewhere... as they always said in the chinese, all good things muz come to an end... it's time for mi to leave... sad but juz haf to accept it...

Todae i juz recaluated the possibility of i leaving on aug, seem like there is a high chance for mi to leave... kind of unexpected cause all the long i thought i will roll... seriously, if i haf to go, i will go... but now got a lot stuff unsettled, feel quite uneasy to leave without settling all e things... Especially there is one more veri serious problem tat i haf been avoiding for e past 1 yr... xiaoying brought it up last sat... actualli i realli forgot abt it after one yr of busy work... but now it's back again... it's juz smthing tat i can't face... maybe i haf to avoid again... seriously now it's not a gd time to talk abt it... everything is juz so uncertain...

ACE 05

2006-07-22T22:04:00.000+08:00

Back from hibernation... have been very busy on the volunteer work for the past few wks... n todae i finalli finish the event... after 6mths of hardwork, finalli everything is finished... to mi, it's also marked down my last volunteer project in my life, i tink... can't haf tat much of time after gg for training... yup... it's my last proj so tis time i realli put in my fullest effort... don't wish to fail the people who entrust e job to me...

Anyway, today's event is not too bad... of course can be better but i tink it's juz our ability threshold... lack of manpower n planning experience... for my side, the games at first is realli messed up, lucky got tim n TL to help mi to sort them out... not realli a lot of ppl there, don't tink we made an impact on the public... but at least i noe we fulfill the most impt point... is to let e beneficiaries enjoy the whole programme n they did... happy to c them enjoy the whole thing...

The other side of the event, swimathon, is quite a success... managed to clock 5,288 laps... tat's realli unexpected... realli gd to c all supports from the swimming clubs and public... even wilson also came out though he got meeting... steady... lol... overall things went out well... not many crowd, as expected... there is a lack of volunteer support in singapore... well... can't help it... juz haf to live wif it...

Now i'm realli damn tired... haf been carrying n running everywhere for two days... my left leg is aching like hell but i heck care... tat one is realli reach limit, soon haf to c doc... haiz... shall go rest now, tml still got driving... omg!!! now to control my clutch wif my left leg... arghzz... idiot...

Happy Birthday

2006-05-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

Hey... active again... got inactive cause of the hectic wk i had (15/5-19/5)... everyday presentation then followed by a exam on the last day... we all didn't get to revise then test liao... cannot take it... didn't even got time to go msn n talk... didn't even bother to connect... lol...

anyway, i'm officially one yr older... "celebrated" my birthdae yest... celebrate??? of course no la... still happily studying my notes, preparing morning brief... n a surprise turnout by my coursemates... didn't expect tat... *stunted* got quite a few birthday wishes from frenz... thanks a lot... gd enough liao... didn't expect much... it's like the 20th time celebrating birthday... how interesting it can be... actualli i even almost forget abt my birthdae (-_-"') cause many years naber celebrate, slowly get used to it liao... become juz a normal day to mi... lol...

my course is coming to an end... 1+wk to go... faster finish ar... i wan my freedom!!!

Extra Work

2006-05-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

Omg... don't know why... e day b4 exam always got a lot of extra work... tml is my exam then todae i kanna a lot of last min work... stunted... got morning brief, ration, attachment stuff n most imptly study!!! study is confirm muz do one la... cannot avoid... lol... ration is juz so lucky tat i haf to do early cause fridae is a holidae... but i'm quite used to e ration stuff liao so not much of a problem also...

then come to attachment is a headache... ajc students give mi problem again... arghz... i thought jc students older liao shld be more organised... but they juz can't stop giving trouble ya??? dotz... n don't noe why those problem always happened e day b4 exam... tian ar~~!!! but now i got it settled down thanks to chris help... if nt i sure die juggling all e stuff...

last work... tml morning brief... haiz... actualli got exam can no need to do one, but no one doing so suck thumb haf to do... seriously said, i not realli keen on doing on e day of exam... but my partner agreed on it so juz do lor... since he agreed wif others, then muz support mahz... however to my shock, due to some last min change, they onli wan us to do e first part which is my part... wth... now left myself doing... (-_-"') if left myself i rather don't do lar... n now i haf to work cause of my partner's promise to others... i mean if is i promise to ppl, i confirm deliver my 100% effort, but tis time is realli a stunt to mi... feel so reluctant to do e brief but i still did it anyway...

all these started because i being too kind to ppl... likw wat my fren said... can push it to others to settle themselves but i still take it up... now i almost suffocated myself wif all e sudden workload... stupid??? not sure... but i feel for other ppl, can't expect others to do my job... tat's veri selfish lar... maybe tat's y i'm always taken for granted n get sabo... but i still hold on the belief of doing e rite thing man... get push around so wat??? at least i 'wei xin wu kui'... hope i got e pinyin correct... lol...

juz hope tml morning brief n exam will be smooth sailing one... pray ar pray ar...

Course BBQ

2006-05-08T12:22:00.000+08:00

Yest had the course bbq at cpt elvis hse... big hse... shiok... e food also power... beside all e standard bbq food, elvis prepared pasta n potato salad... damn nice sia... i tink he can be a gd cook... lol... i will say yest is e best bbq i ever had... eat until damn full... confirm put on weight again... all e gym training wasted... lol...

besides bbq, we also get e opportunity to test drive vincent's mini cooper... arghzz... i don't haf licence... wasted... but at least i get to seat in the passenger seats... lol... the car stability is quite gd... tat's y wongster can do all e stunts during test drive... faint~ but i tink vincent will be e one who faint first... haha... will never forget somebody 2nd gear 120km/h cum hard brake turn... can hear e brake pad screaming frm faraway... lol... pain...

yest nite we played until quite havoc... i tink we totalli messed up elvis hse n almost broke his bed... madness... lol... luckily i didn't drink much... if not i sure gone... but it's a fun nite... a gd chill out after three exams... got five more to go... wahaha...

Change of Address

2006-05-07T13:16:00.000+08:00

Hmm... tis is my second time changing my blog address... i tink not a bad idea also... don't wan to haf too mani ppl c my blog... especially after recent stupid n childish issue, i tink is gd to switch... i shall be e loser... i'm tired of doing anything to prove myself...

i haf finalli come to realise... y spend so much effort on one group of frenz??? i neglected e rest of my fren... in e end i still suffered tis kind of unwanted pain... i tired of tis man...

yest derek struck mi wif a qns during sec gathering... "hey ray, u veri long naber organise pri sch gathering le leh..." then i realised... ya... true... it's time to switch back to e past raymond... simple n happy life...

back to e "cage" n play soccer wif u guys...
back to offer my service for hornet scouts troop...
back to my 6B3 classmates...
tat's e life i had neglected for the past 2yrs... i will pay it back... i promise...

Gathering

2006-05-07T12:30:00.000+08:00

Yawn... yest is super tiring for mi... morning went to bishan home for attachment... most of time i'm tying to stay awake... realli too tired liao... i tink is all e fatigue tat accumlate throughout e whole wk... all e gym, swim n ippt... anyway, e students r doing gd now... don't realli need mi to be there... lol... finalli can take a rest... hopefully all attachment will be doing gd like them...

after e morning attachment, i cannot take it anymore and haf to go home take power nap... realli lacking of sleep... took around one hr of nap then i rushed down to davin hse for e sec sch gathering... well... not a bad gathering i will say... at least get to meet up wif all e old frenz...

most of my sec frenz juz finished poly tis yr... gg army lor... haha... mi n eugene were busy getting them "prepared" for e coming hell... lol... not so serious lahz... bmt is realli chalet now... ocs is worse... wahaha... i missed e ocs days, power!!! it's fun talking to all of them... at least i feel more comfortable talking wif all of them... realli miss e day hanging out wif them, playing soccer, lan gaming n all sorts of stupid things we did... lol...

most of my scouts fren r there also... ya... i guilty of not gg scouts activity tis yr... i'm so sry man... sat i got my volunteer work, can't go down... haiz... maybe next sat i shld go down n help out... shall c how is it...

Stupidity

2006-05-05T15:53:00.000+08:00

After yest venting out my anger on him... he still don't seem to be reflecting whether he is wrong... gd, fine... i'm dumb enough to feel so sad when he still continue stabbing on me... gd fren... wat a joke... i treat him as one, but he doesn't give a damn... tat'e life... i accept it... wahaha... tat muz be e greatest joke in my life...

i now witness how gd a person can distort a story... simply great... filter away the main ideas of the conversation, juz quote those small mistakes and make a big arugment in it... twisting of facts... remind me of certain party... wahaha...

i'm so stupid to be so affected yest... why bother when someone didn't even give a care rite??? shld conserve energy for other things... since he enjoys so much in making me look like a fool n him look like a wiseman, let him be then... time to move on...

Shattered

2006-05-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

It supposed to be a happy day... got my IPPT gold, doing great for my exams... but have been shattered all because of someone... i'm so disappointed... my heart feel veri pain... as if it has been cut by a sharp knife... it's my first time having tis feeling... i don't know y... i don't know y he has to be like tat... i can't believe he can do tis kind of thing... WHY!!?? for all i haf been trying to hold 32 of us together... but seem like i'm the one tat can't do it... i juz don't know... i juz feel veri betrayed... i don't understand his intention... i planned to listen to his explanation... but i juz blew off b4 i could do tat... y can't i juz hold a bit more??? arghzz... i don't know y... i juz lost control... i can't believe it realli happens to mi... i'm so useless...

forget abt it... i juz broke the promise i made... as i was still happily talking abt it yest, todae i juz shattered it with my own hand... i tink i'm juz purely useless... wat "promise wat u can do, deliver more than wat u promised"... i can't even do tat... i'm so sry to the rest of ur... i'm e one tat can't do tat...

Busy

2006-05-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

Once again i see myself sorting out the volunteer work while i was trying hard to study... plus tml is my exam!!! time is getting shorter... but both r impt... haf no choice but to multi-task... yay... tat's e word tat my instructor always like to use... MULIT-TASKING... now SVC is like turned upside down, everything is totalli messed up... now we r trying to solve every problem... it gonna be tough but nth is confirm until we try... rite???

ok... now i'm at chapter 7... 15 chapters in total... wish mi luck... 8 more chapters to go... (-_-"')

Council Campfire

2006-05-01T20:51:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy... yest i went to the council campfire organised by the 28/29th student council... it's supposed to be a yearly tradition for the council but tis is e one first time i gg... quite excited... had a meet up wif my 26th first at e alumni rm, thanks to songkwang for opening it for us... actualli tinkin abt it, it has been quite some time since e last time i meet out wif them... so i'm quite happy seeing all of them :)

after tat, we went to e campfire at e cca block carpark... it realli brings back my memories as council elects... looking at all e 29th councillor wannabes... sweating like hell, tired but still haf to act enthu, cheering n supporting their fellow elects throughout e whole campfire... but anyway, e campfire is e last nite of council camp, gd to c they haf survived through it... hardship trains gd councillors...

quite a lot of 'old birds' came back for e campfire... i tink we 26th got e most ppl back, 21 if i'm not wrong... that's 2/3 of our batch, feel so proud tat we r still so united after 2yrs :) e campfire is entertaining... but most of e time, we r actualli busy talking among ourselves... so long naber meet confirm got a lot to talk abt... lol... anyway e campfire ended quite fast, at around 9 smthing we all left e sch liao... no interaction time like last time... don't noe wat happen... but gd for e elects, end early, get e last torture early then rest early... ha... still remember how i get torture on e compfire nite... (-_-"')

after e campfire, some of us (acutalli is half of us) went to fish hse to haf supper n play mahjong... i played dai dee instead, cause i quite tired to tink... mahjong needs too much concentration... haha... feb, des n mi were teaching our ms farn how to play dai dee... hopefully she doesn't bring tat knowledge into e class n teach... wahaha... e 'gambling' session ended quite early at around 12smthing... veri rare considering it's at fish hse... lol...

had quite a lot of fun for tis weekend... veri fast i back to my work... hai... tml is presentation!!! omg... hopefully i don't screw it up again... muz control my talking speed... arghzzz....

busy

2006-04-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

ok... i was busy settling the volunteer work while trying hard to study for my exam for the past 6hrs... oh well... nth went into my head... ha... i'm dead tis time... i hope i don't fail my exam... *pray*

my fren sent tis interesting email to me juz now... quite funni, share wif all of ur... smthing abt girls...

~*~Type Of Girls~*~

HARD DISK GIRLS:
she remembers everything, FOREVER

RAM GIRLS:
she forgets about you, the moment you turn her off

WINDOW GIRLS:
everyone know that she can't do a thing right, but no one can live
without her.

SCREENSAVER GIRLS:
She is good for nothing but at least she is fun

INTERNET GIRLS:
Difficult to access

SERVER GIRLS:
Always busy when you need her.

MULTIMEDIA GIRLS:
She make horrible things look beautiful

CD-ROM GIRLS:
She is always
faster and faster.

EMAIL GIRLS:
Of Every ten things she says, eight are nonsense .

VIRUS GIRLS:
Also known as "wife'' when you are not expecting her, she comes,
installs herself and uses all your resources. If you try to uninstall
her you will lose something, if you don't try uninstalling her you will
lose everything...

New blogskin

2006-04-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

tinkin of changing e blog skin... but i'm too busy to design my own one so i juz took one frm blogskin.com... ok... i noe wat u guys r tinkin... i'm realli busy k... mugging like hell... so don't say we r slack, it's not easy ok :P anyway, i chosen e black n orange combin... quite a great contrast, never try orange b4... gd to add some bright colour to e blog, i have been using dull colours for my blog for quite long...

todae i found out an interesting fact of my course... i'm e onli one tat never get attached b4 in the course... tat sounds so pathetic lar... ha... but cannot blame la... tat's my fate... blah... maybe next time i have to go SDU to find help... wahaha... in fact, a few of my coursemates got attached recently... every nite see them talking on phone, smiling like nobody business... performance in the course also getting better, both academic n physical... maybe tat's e power of love... lol... reminds mi of my fren who improve frm last position in e class to e top in one yr juz because of his gf... *shocked* maybe i shld start finding my first one... hmmm....

haha.... wait long long ar~~

Time to revive

2006-04-23T19:45:00.001+08:00

I'm back to revive my blog... lol... finalli can login blogger using e camp network... for e past few wk got a lot of problem logging in, tat's y didn't make any post... e first thing i did is to fix back my tagboard... thanks to kelvin's recommendation, now i got tis cbox to host my tag... heard it's quite gd, at least it won't expire like e previous one... lost all e history... haiz...

haf been quite busy recently... juz finished one test... started a new topic, thicker notes than e previous one... omg!!! for every new topic, e notes juz keep getting thicker... i already finished one highlighter after going through two topics... now besides study, the physical training also starting to get more intense... juz took my IPPT recently, didn't perform as gd as in ocs... got silver thanks to my 2.4km, few seconds to reach 9.45mins... arghzzz... i swear i will train hard n get back my IPPT gold e next time!!!

study aside... talk a bit abt SVC... tis wk is not a gd wk for us... got a lot of problem in e attachment... all juz because of the new homes tat we supposed to go down tis wk... apparently there is a lot miscommunication n admin problem... kind of expected liaoz... but since travis insisted on starting more new groups so i haf to do so... now problem comes, homes not happy, he not happy, we also not happy... now we r trying to merge them to existing home attachment which supposed to be e initial plan... wth... go one big round n make everyone so unhappy... now juz hope next wk can settle down e rjc students then everything shld be no prob... then i also can concentrate more on study... getting more n more things to study... lao tian ar!!!!

Busy

2006-03-30T12:42:00.000+08:00

Busy busy busy... supposed to be veri free for my one wk leave but work juz keep piling up... got my volunteer work to settle, got a lot of problem wif e attachment... then still haf to study... ya! i'm studying!!! or shld i say i'm mugging juz like A lvl... i super kaisu, b4 course starts i already started reading up... tat's y now my notes r full of question marks... lol... e instructor is gg to get a lot of "bombardment" frm mi... no choice lar... life n death matter, good to know more...

as can c frm e no. of entries i made recently, my blog is getting quite inactive liaoz... i doubt anyone will be still reading my blog... lol... e tagboard server already started threating to close down my inactive tagboard... can't help it... for e next few mths i will be more busy so i tink tis blog is gg to close down soon or later... shall c how long it will last ba... anyway, now i can't talk much abt my work in blog liaoz... so apparently there is nth much to talk lar... feel veri restricted, but since i'm in it, haf to follow their system... no use endangering my career by gg against it... yup... will c when is my next entry... lol... back to mugging~

hope everyone is doing gd now... i hardly go out wif frenz also... i promise u guys, when my course ends, i will go n 'dig' all of ur out... so don't go mia... ha...

Update

2006-03-07T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hey... disappear for quite long liao... didn't realli haf chance to blog also... juz got back from brunei... got myself 160+ sandfly bites n some minor cuts... but not bad, considering i'm able to get out safely... ha... i can't believe i survived the whole thing, it's realli awesome... oh btw, i saw cheryl's bf over there also... so coincidental... took me quite a while to recognise cause i onli c him in friendster b4... lol... anyway, it's a gd experience over there...

ya... now i'm back to normal training... nth much can talk abt... now my life is starting get busier... recently i juz got chosen to be e chair for SVC upcoming sport carnival... well... don't noe how well i can do... i onli in SVC for 1+yr, didn't realli noe their style of working... forsee there will be quite a lot of problems... i onli got 3mths to plan n now i didn't have my committee set up... die... dotz... beside tat, i also trying to push for my driving test... hopefully i can get driving licence b4 gg oversea... seem quite impossible to mi now cause i gg off soon... 'walk one step, calculate one step' ba...

hmm... now my schedule for tis yr is more or less settle... e main deciding factor is e oversea actaully... once it's set, everything is clear... tis yr seem like i haf to miss e LTC... haiz... thought can go for third time... too bad... end june, council is gg taiwan... still tinkin whether shld go or not... hopefully my course end in time then can take leave to go wif them... start to save money for e trip liaoz... lol...

Chinese New Year

2006-02-04T13:12:00.000+08:00

Very fast it's e sixth day of chinese new year... e last last entry i was still complaining abt e suffering i gg to haf... ya... it did happened as expected... but still ok lar... juz haf to suffer most of my admin time to settle misc stuff everyday... hardly got time do my own stuff, especially e fri... my room got "tornado" my instructor... no time to pack my room then haf to rush to book out for new year... no spring cleaning for my room... great... ha... anyway, now i'm off duty... finalli... can relax n enjoy my new year... lol...

tis chinese new year is pretty standard ba... chu yi went to three relative hse onli... getting lesser everyday... cause got two of my relatives passed away last yr so they will not be celebrating new year... last yr is realli not a gd year... then for chu er n chu san r all for council... i'm e one organising so can't go for other hse visit... haf to PS my sec sch gathering organised by yuyun... know her intention but i can't go to show my support... sry ar... council visit tis yr is not realli tat fun... cause there is quite limited hse to go also... every yr is almost e same... anyway, at least we haf e chance to meet up n haf some fun...

talking abt council, yest i juz had a little talk wif ms choong... she was wondering how come i was not there for angel farewell dinner... oh well... apparently i'm able to attend it cause i booked out early yest... but there was no detail passed down to me... so i juz replied that i juz booked out, not enough time to go down to join them... then she was commenting abt e bonding in 26th now... e message goes as follow...

ms choong:"I just thought it was sad that the greatest council is now eroded by arrogance and big ego.:( guess all good things must come to an end?"

can know wat she is commenting on... i was quite stunted by her message n not really noe how to reply her... i started to wonder wat she is said is it really true... i haf been hanging out wif one side all along... hardly talk to the other group n so don't really understand wat they tinking... maybe tat's y we always mis-com, juz like tis time... i thought tis time cny gathering bring us closer but they all cannot make it... we r getting further apart day by day... i agree wif wat ms choong said, it's realli sad to see e council ended like tat... but i don't noe wat else i can do to save it... i juz hope more ppl can understand my feeling... n things will get back on track again... i realli missed e days when 33 of us study, work n play together...

New Year 2006

2006-01-01T04:14:00.000+08:00

Yeah... new year lor... 2005 seem to pass veri fast for mi... not realli a gd year for mi... i tink is mostly is cause of NS ba... lots of things r screwed up due to e NS... this 2006 is gg to be a full year of NS, don't noe how it's gg to be... juz hope it's gonna be better... anyway at tis new year day, i shall do a simple review of my 2005...

first thing to highlight shld be my A level... quite a achievement for mi i tink... managed to get my 3A... though GP is C6, at least it's better fail ba... n thanks to e result i managed to get my place in NTU aerospace engineering... realli happy to get it, i tink it's quite an intersting course to study in... i personally it will be fun to work wif planes... who knows, maybe next time i can design or at least modify a plane... lol...

tis yr 2005 is quite a stressful year for mi as it marked down as a junction in my life... i haf chosen my path... maybe it's e fact tat there is no turning back tat given mi lot of stress... there is no chance for failure... either i got a wonderful career or i screwed myself up... now everything is still veri uncertain... i tink things will be more settled after 2007... going to be two yrs process... whether i'm up to it or not, we will see at 2007... wish mi all best ba... lets hope 2006 will be a better one for everyone... happy new year!!!

Training

2005-12-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

Inactive for quite long... it's time to update a bit... tis wk i'm back... ya... finalli finish e parade thing... e whole parade is still ok overall... not as good as i expect lar... tat day everyone is too nervous... so ended everything screwed up... felt quite sad... practice until wanna die liao, ended up things don't turn out as wat we wan... anyway, it's still a gd experience lar... learned a lot of things... n i'm quite honoured to be able to carry e colour which not mani haf e chance to do so... an experience tat i haf to use YV camp to trade... costly but no choice lar... heard tat e camp turned out well... happy for them... but it's juz e starting... everyone muz jia you ya??? don't forget e big event on june... then we finalli take rest...

talking abt SVC side... things don't go well for mi... every single event juz so accurate tat lands on e time which i cannot go... now i starting to miss meeting... n it's not going to get better!!! next wk onwards i'm starting my training... haf to stay-in which means no more weekday meeting... hmm... can't expect them to meet on weekend cause we all know it's veri precious... lol... so i'm slowly transforming into e "spirit" of e committee... ha... seem like it's gg to last quite long... i predict tat i will lose contact wif e project for nearly 13wks... or worse 20+wks if my course starts early... i tink by e time i'm free, shld be e june event liaoz... long way to go... haiz...

next wk onwards is back to chiong-ing mode liaoz... time to sleep in forest... lol... i tink it's gg to be quite fun though i quite long naber go chiong in forest... hopefully everything goes on well... i still having some minor injuries... shoulder n leg... hope they won't be a hindrance during exercise...

ok... tat's e update so far... next one shld be when i book out ba... provided i got e energy n time to type it out... ha...

Des Chalet

2005-12-04T04:41:00.000+08:00

Now is 4.23AM... at des chalet... super tired... we gambled thoughout e nite... now they r finalli going to stop... lol... i lost e most tonite... i tink got 8 bucks... today is not my day... haiz... seem like my suai life is still carrying on...

talk abt e first wk of shit first... i last min change my role... totalli don't noe wat to do n they expect us to do e best... wth... don't noe wat r they tinkin lar... aren't they suppose to e best person for e job??? i had no experience in it at all lar... damn stupid... then i kanna a lot of punishment cause i juz can't do e rite thing lar... haiz... so demoralising... n next wk is gg to be worst... all five days haf to go for training... i getting a lot of injuries now... don't noe i can survive till e actual day or not... haiz...

ok... happy stuff... todae finalli got out... wasted a lot of money on cab... cause is rushing around... haf to go svc pre-camp briefing by 2... will not be gg e camp but juz wanna go down n take a look lar... juz hopefully e camp will run smoothly... after tat, i was rushing around wif chris for e camp t-shirt design stuff... reached des chalet at around 8.30... not as mani ppl as i expected but got rare appearance... mr toh, lau n tan... onli get to talk to them for a while... i came too late la... lol... apparently we didn't do much thing la... juz e noraml chit-chat session n gambling... but it's still fun... ha... at least it a gd to spend my precious wkend meaningfully...

gg back in soon... so sian... gg to miss e camp... i tink e next wk gg to a tough for mi... will be veri demoralise cause i miss e volunteer camp... it's realli damn sad lar... haiz... realli hate it but i still haf to do it... cannot take it... faster get over n done wif... ok... now is 4.39AM... light off liaoz... everyone is sleeping... time for mi to sleep also... muz get back some energy... tired...

Staying In

2005-11-27T18:05:00.000+08:00

The previous blog skin got some error which cannot load e image... n i don't realli got e time to go n sort it out... so decided to juz anyhow get one blogskins.com...
quite simple one... at least no error la... lol... tis shall be e layout for e next two wks when i'm staying in...

ya... i finalli staying in... quite long naber stay in... almost five mths le... tis time stay in shld be all e way until next yr may ba... mani trainings in a row... so haf to stay in for quite long... e most stupiest is still e idiot parade... e next two wks gg to be hell for mi... get trained for nth... no motivation to train at all... so sian... hate to do things without an aim... can't wait to get over it as soon as possible...

anyway, there is one thing i still feel veri bad... which is i cannot go e volunteer camp... is not realli tat i wanna go there to haf fun... is juz do things halfway is realli not my style... feel realli bad tat haf to leave e stuff to other members to cover up... somemore i'm doing e programme... but tis time is realli can't help it liaoz... tried all sort of ways to keep myself free for e camp... but in ended still kanna tis last min sai gang... there is realli nth i can do... i'm realli sorry abt tat... hope e camp will be a success... haiz...

Fun Day...

2005-11-20T14:42:00.000+08:00

Wohz...finalli back home to rest... yest is realli tiring... but it's fun lar... so no complain... it has been quite a long time ever since i enjoyed so much... miss it... ok, to e details now...

yest afternoon went to sch for e soccer match wif e 28th... b4 e match i went to meet up chris n tim for e volunteer camp stuff... was walking around e sch to check out places for e camp... not bad... tim is quite a organised person, no worry now... cause he is gg e camp, programme shldn't be a problem liaoz... until now i still quite sad tat i cannot go camp :(... but i'm still working hard to settle as much stuff as possible b4 i go into ocs... hope tis camp will turn out well...

after tat is e soccer match... e 28th r gd... first half i was being veri lazy, juz play e defensive half... hardly attack... lol... after first half we had some dancing... i forgot e 25th five dance!!! die lar... too long naber dance liaoz... so malu lar... actualli is wanna pass down e 25th dance to e juniors one... but i screwed up e whole dance... alamak... shi bai... lol... after all e stupid dance wif fish, we went back to second half... ah... tat's e fun part lar... chiong like hell, attack all e way... i keep shooting but always miss... lol... at least got score one lar... no bad also, althought it one out of many shots... haha... anyway, e match ended wif e 28th winning... nvm... it's a gd game :)

for e nite mi,junhui n des went to fish hse for pizza n mahjong... we talked a lot craps while waiting for kok to join us for mahjong, mostly army stuff... kok came at 12... super late... DOTA again... anyway, we didn't play for long, onli until 2++... cause i keep winning... lol... after tat we decided to sleep at around 2+ but smthing happened... stupid kok went siao again... lol... keep disturbing us, make stupid sound n jumping around e bed... arghzzz... then we will trying to tie him up... mi n junhui gave up halfway, left des n fish... lol... don't noe where kok got so much energy from... i'm like super tired liaoz... can't wait to sleep...

anyway, ended up kok went to sleep n e rest of us can't sleep liao... too awake thanks to kok... ha... so four of us sit around e mahjong table n talk craps again... tis time is abt relationship... hmm... now council is 50% attached... lol... i'm still single... then fish is like keep introducing girls from e NY yearbook to mi... funni lar... am i reali tat bad tat need him to introduce??? but i juz can't get myself attached lar... ha... time not rite, girl not there... was talking to des abt tat... seem like i gg to stay single for a much longer time... ha...

we slept at around 4 eventually, then woke up at around 7 for breakfast at e roti prata shop over at serangoon garden... e cheese prata is nice... muz go try... ha... oh btw... i knew a sercet yest... abt des... ha... observant enough to see tat... no worry... i won't say out... lol...

Pissed off

2005-11-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

Things haf not been going well recently... which starting to get me mad... maybe tat's e bad point abt me... i cannot stand ppl messing up the things tat i haf planned nicely... it's worse when u do smthing wif passion n ended up, it doesn't turn out to be wat u expect... life is realli unexpected, nth is constant... although i always remind myself to be flexible n adapt to e situation, things juz keep getting worse... don't noe y, whenever i fixed one problem, another one will pop out... it never ends ya???

but e interesting part is... i blame no one... i juz blame myself... for not being there is stop e problem from arising or to solve it... maybe it's juz my habit... "if things go wrong, problem lies on mi"... sounds weird but tat's wat i believe lar... cause i feel it's always easier to change urself rather than changing e environment... but now, i start to wonder, is it realli my fault tis time??? or e situation is meant to be screwed up n no matter wat i do it's gonna be e same ending??? i don't noe... it has been one n a half yr since i got tis feeling... feel lost, can't get e energy to work on... i seem to lose my focus... things r not as simple as wat i tink... maybe it's a time to take a break......

Back to Singapore

2005-10-30T17:06:00.000+08:00

Have been quite a while since i came back from singapore... around 2 wks ba... in total shld be around 7wks naber blog liaoz... lol... no choice lar... although over there is internet access but it's dangerous to talk abt e training on blog... e instructors also warn us to be careful wif wat we type in e blog cause now it's possible to get charge as wat e news said... so it's better to be safe ar... ha... but anyway, i passed!!! it has been quite a long n tough period for mi... 5wks... seem short but a lot of things to learn... it's realli not easy... i remembered i almost give up halfway through e training... but luckily got my frenz n course mates to support, i pulled through it... learned a lot through e training... n now i more mentally prepared for the next phase of training... can't believe it, my next oversea is gg to be 9+mths... i wonder how can i survive tat... lol...

ok... put e oversea training aside... now back to sg... waiting for next training phase... quite free there but almost everyday go for physical training... intensive one... e 5wks oversea, i hardly exercise... now fitness dropped all e way to e bottom... die... last wed juz took IPPT... barely got silver... my 2.4km run until i almost faint... haf to train a lot more... target for e yr, get gold for my IPPT!!!

anyway, it has been one year since i start blogging... so todae i designed a new layout for my blog... used photoshop to design e background... quite nice i tink... like e theme also, council memories... hmm... being in council is e best part of my life so far... when i was down during airgrading, i always tink abt e gd time i spent wif my council... realli miss them... as wat e quote said, "happiness is time spent with friends and looking forward to sharing time with them again."... they r e group of ppl i wanna spend my time with... hope to c ya soon...

Mid-Autumn

2005-09-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

Yest went for council gathering cum early mid-autumn celebration at fish hse... a time for us to update each other... not a lot ppl come but noisy enough to wake up e neighbourhood liao... lol... once again, e council mahjong session is back... i still play wif e same old ppl, kok, limei n chris... ha... ended up, mi n limei won... still "bao dao wei lao" after so long naber play mahjong... actualli for e whole nite, we didn't do much thing la... most of e time we r talking or busy talking fotos... e usual stuff but never get bored of it... maybe tat's y it's fun to be out wif council, simple yet get fun... hehz... we played until 1+ then we all decided to go home... i tinkin of stay overnite but no one "pei" mi... haiz... so take cab back wif chris... so tired...

Fun outing

2005-08-28T10:55:00.000+08:00

Yest is a fun one... for quite long, i haven't been out of home for more than half a day... it's hard to find another group to go out wif for long, except wif my council frenz... e activities r not plan one... it all started from e morning volunteer induction talk over at e NYC by SVC... mi n songkwang brought e NY students down for e talk... well... not veri effective i muz talk... but at least give them a basic knowledge of volunteerism... then at NYC, we met up wif chris, becky n zhixuan...

so after e talk, we all went for movie, watching e valiant... it's a veri funny show... but u haf to reduce ur expectation to kid level n just enjoy e laughter... if not, i tink u regret spending money for e show... ha... for e show, we got two ppl join us, if i didn't get their name wrong, shld be junkai n xiaoyin... both r songkwang ltc members... after e show, we practically wasting time walking around e town trying to find nice ice-cream to eat... walk for dist then they finalli decided to take bus to marina square... n we went to changing appetite... my favourite restuarant... i tink their food is realli nice... u guys got chance muz go n try... ha...

then we haf quite a long meal there, for abt 3hrs??? we talk abt a lot of things during meal... jason joined us halfway... then e discussion gets more fun... it's also a beneficial talk... get to learn new things frm jason n songkwang... i tink becky also learn a lot after talking to us... hopefully... ha... after e meal, we decided to go for pool... by tat time onli left all SDC members n one songkwang's ltc member, junkai... he is a interesting guy, quite a potential leader i see... he is e onli one tat go out wif us for e whole dae... ha... hardcore... we went for pool over at paradiz, quite a fun one... jason got realli bad luck for e nite... pocket four black balls in total... lol... i can't stop laughing abt tat la... haha...

anyway, we haf fun until 11+ then we finalli decided to go home... for e whole day, spent nearly 40 bucks... so guilty of tat... for e next wk, i muz be more careful of my money liaoz... if not, my bank money sure gone... muz control... arghzz.... remember... money is just like reputation... can be easy to earn but veri hard to maintain... haha... make sense rite???

Back to Nanyang

2005-08-16T19:55:00.000+08:00

Todae went back NY to settle e volunteer project wif e admin... met mrs ho in e morning wif liping, haf quite a nice talk wif her... but as usual, still stressful... it's just me tat always will stress myself when talk to higher authority... gd thing is mrs ho is super friendly n supportive of our project... seem like tis time is quite promising... now is juz lack of student involvement... hopefully after publicising, there will have students signing up... during e discussion, mrs ho still shows us e statistics of tis entry data for NTU... got 8 students got in aerospace eng... tommy also in, got one classmate i noe liao... ha... seem like our batch is doing quite gd... more ppl got into e hot courses... gd gd... lol...

after talking to mrs ho, we slack around e sch waiting for chris... then e "friendly" security guard came n srewed us at e canteen... i admit tat it's our fault for holding e security pass instead of putting on it... but e way he talk to us is realli bad... extremely rude... however, i choose to ignore him la... liping is like super irritated by him n keep on complaining abt for e whole day... lol... then mi n chris haf to cool her down b4 she gg to complain to any higher authority... ha... after tat, we went to meet mrs chong to clear up e rest for e volunteer thing... all seem fine... got almost everything settled wif e admin... gd... after tat, went to funan to meet song kwang... had late lunch there... then also do some shopping for liping's laptop bag... didn't get anything, wasted trip... haiz...

walk until 3smthing then we rush back to NY to talk to e students... can't get bus so took a cab... waste money again... haiz... then reach sch see e stupid security guard again... arghhzz... choose to ignore :p met e students at around 4... onli got 7 ppl... so pathetic la... haiz... sad... but at least they all interested to help out... no bad also... juz do wif wat we haf ba...i PS-ed des to see doc for my shoulder injury... ended up i found out i didn't bring enough money... (-_-"') smart right... so i didn't c e doc... my shoulder is still pain... die liaoz...

Firework

2005-08-15T21:21:00.000+08:00

It's mondae blue again... another tiring day, as usual la... main reason is cause' yest naber haf enough sleep... went marina bay until quite late then reach home... i went to see firework wif council frenz... i muz say, e firework is superb... i tink it's much better than e national day one... especialli it's synchronize wif e background music, e whole thing is like watching e musical fountain on sky... super nice... next yr muz go back n see again...

after e firework, we all went to haf steamboat... meet up wif nat they all... then everything starts to get very noisy liaoz... lol... tat's wat nat is realli gd at... he is also e onli one i can play madly wif ar... still can remember how mad we r during council... tat nite we realli find back e childish part of us... did a lot stupid things... ha... on e dinner got a lot of council updates again... it's always these update session tat keep us bonded until now... quite fun... time flies when we r havin fun... we talk n talk until e shop is gg to close then we no choice haf to go... we left at around 11+... then we arguing whether to take cab or train... ended up fish brought us for a road march to e mrt station... digested all e food liaoz... lastly, i decided to take train... no money for cab... haiz... i'm so broke... everything on budget...

LTC2005

2005-08-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

Wow... it's back again, LTC'05... my second time back as a facilitator... looking forward to it for quite long cause' i noe it gonna be a veri fun n enriching juz like last yr... indeed tis yr gimli naber disappoint mi... in fact they performed much better than my previous batch... it's my first time having such a bonded n hyper group... i must say they haf given mi a lot of "shocks" in e camp... i tink tis yr there r more potential leader around, especialli councillors... seem like 28th progress will be quite interesting... build up e reputation, guys... be proud of council...

i'm badly sunburned now cause' i lazy to put sunblock :P ha... i deserved tat so no complains... but e worst part is i injured my right shoulder... n i tinkin not again... tat time my back already cost mi a bomb n a lot of time to heal, n now is shoulder... airgrading is coming soon, realli can't offer to risk it... tis fridae haf to go c e same chinese doc again... tink i can be e honorary member of e clinic liaoz... haiz... gonna burn my pocket... i juz got my pay leh... arghzz...

Message for Gimli: u guys rock... i tink i no need to describe how much i'm like ur... ur r simply too great to be described... i'm veri proud of ur... hope ur will hold on e things e facils taught n further develop frm tat... remember... to lead wif heart, not brain... hope to cya soon... :)

Chamber test

2005-07-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

Latest update!!!

I passed my chamber test... got no prob wif my ear drums... now i'm awaiting for my posting... now my fate is up to e medical board... it's time to realli realli pray double hard... i wanna pass... most prob result will be out next wk... it's so stressful...

Update2

2005-07-27T13:48:00.000+08:00

Ok... back to second part of updates... now talk abt happy stuffs... though FEP has kinda screwed my life up, i still haf to thank it for allowing me to attend some impt events for e past one mth... i bet if i'm in command sch, i won't be able to attend any of them...

first one is SVC launch day... six mths of planning n it's finalli e day to see e result... everything went quite smoothly except for some hiccups due a stupid person which i don't wish to mention... he juz screws things up la, so we all choose to ignore him... it's great to c e IDs r enjoying tat dae... too bad i had not much to play wif them... was busying over at e captain's ball com... e competition is a nice one... it's a excellent one, especialli e final... SCGS captain's ball is realli gd i muz say... overall it's a wonderful day down at youth park... marked down e independence of SVC n also i see it as a start of new challenges, sport volunteerism... hope we can make a gd one... yup...

second is council invest... back to sch... e new building is great... envy e current batch of students... e invest not bad... seen e new batch of councillors, e 28th... they all look quite promising... tink they can do a better job... LTC coming up soon, give us a chance to c how gd r they also...

lastly is obviously LTC la... without fail, NY leadership training camp is coming up tis yr during august... they used back LOTR in memory of MR John Lim... i tink LOTR is a gd story, so using back e same is a great idea... tis yr got more student leaders n shorter camp days... which means programme wise is tighter... i'm still wondering is it possible to induce e ideas into e students within such a short time... hope e camp can run smoothly la... looking forward to it... haf fun... ha...

tat's all for last mth... phew... rest...

New Template

2005-06-14T14:51:00.000+08:00

Suddenly got e feeling to change e template of my blog... too long naber change, look a bit boring liaoz... tis new template took mi 4hrs to complete, much faster than e previous one... i'm getting better in those CSS commands... took mi a long time to get used to it... coming wif e new design is more fotos... got a lot more free space than e previous one... i personalli quite like tis template, it's close to e effect tat i wish to get, thanks to e new commands... but there is always restrictions in CSS commands, quite hard to make it veri nice... tink of using java script but shall wait till i veri free then do ba... as for now, just stick to e conventional way... lol...

Council Outing

2005-06-12T12:54:00.000+08:00

*yawn* Just woke up n it's already afternoon... yest is realli a long nite... went for council gathering over at toa payoh, jayne's treat... long time naber c each other, so it's realli a great chance for all of us to catch up... n maybe is cause' of tat, tis time turnout is realli gd... we got 24councillors came down for e BBQ n it totalli trashed e record of 17 set by shyuan... it's realli feel great to c so mani of them came n as usual, it's fun to be wif council frenz... for e whole nite, all of us r busy talking... tink we talk for 90% of e time, 10% for food... n for we guys is all abt army stuff... everytime comes to army, it's non-stop discussion... sometimes army can be quite fun also... lol... tink we talked until 9smthing, then we had a lot of photo-taking sessions, as usual... now i got new fotos to put in my council album, which still got a lot of empty pages...

after council BBQ, i went to fish's hse to play mahjong wif chris, jas n xiang... played until 4smthing then finish n i won 12bucks... 30bucks "sch fee" to my sis, now i got some return... lol... now realise i realli cannot tahan overnight... 4smthing i knockout n sleep until 6.30 then left fish's hse wif chris they all... back home then continue sleeping until todae... i seriously in need of sleep... it's worse than in tekong now... *yawnz*

Passing Out Parade

2005-06-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

Finalli POP lor... out of tekong island, hopefully i won't get back there again... no longer recuit anymore, no botak n booking in/out wif smart4... 9wks realli passed veri fast, just like wat my platoon sgt Didicazli told mi on e first wk of enlistment... e time i spent wif my platoon is realli a memorable experience... enduring through difficulties, rolling in mud, doing firing movement n all e stupid stuffs we did in these 9 wks... together as Hawk platoon 3, we pulled through...

now everyone is off to their own path... mostly i tink is sispec, some OCS n some weird voactions... if i'm lucky enough to get into pilot vocation, don't tink there is chance to meet any of them... n i noe hawk platoon 3 is going to be e best group of ppl i met in my whole SAF life... for both cases, pilot or OCS, r full of backstabbers n true fren doesn't come easy... it's realli true tat army life can reveal e evil side of humans... sometimes it can be realli shocking by wat man can do just to achieve wat they wan... e greed for power n status... haiz... 9wks of BMT is an eyeopener for mi, i learned a lot... tink for e rest of 1+year, there is a lot more for mi to experience n learn...

I'm back

2005-06-04T23:13:00.000+08:00

Wow... i'm finalli back home... 2wks naber come back... last weekend was at pasir ris chalet wif my family... having a small gathering wif all my relatives n also a bit of celebrating me n my sis birthdae... anyway, brief summary again... now life in tekong is quite relax liao la... gg to pass out soon... physical training cut down a lot... now is a lot of drill practice... preparing for POP...

talking abt some major events in tekong... we finalli finished our graduation 24km route march... tired to e max... luckily no blisters... my feet is kinda swollen after e march... first time experiencing tat... but recover quite fast... e march overall is quite fun, got a lot of singing n craps... everyone is super high morale on tat dae... last route march liao, die die also muz sing out loud... i almost kanna sore throat, thanks to e "singing" session...

next up, grenade throwing... can't believe how powerful such a small thing can be... e shockwave n sound r like stunting... once in a lifetime... i didn't hit e target... then got pump by PC cause i naber pull out e safety pin properly... lol... quite stupid la... i also don't noe how i manage to twist e pin... maybe is i too nervous la... once in e bay, i onli tink abt how to get e stupid thing out of my hand... e rest is heck care... ha...

next, my IPPT n SOC... my IPPT is still silver... arghzzz... but my 2.4km improve to 9.55min... 10secs away from gold... nvm... i shall get my gold in unit... then can get e gold badge n bonus... ha... speed training n AGR realli help a lot... then my SOC performance also not bad la... got 9.26min... pass e OCS standard, 9.30min... but timing can be improve on la... cause i walk a lot during e SOC... thanks to e pumping session by FS b4 e SOC starts... more PT to go... phew...

lastly, a small gd news for myself... i'm ranked 4th in e platoon... not bad la... got extra admission ticket n parking lot for POP... lol... don't noe how i got e 4th one... i was wondering how they decide on e ranking... anyway, now i kinda confirm in OCS liaoz... e rest is up to my medical test... i'm one step nearing to air force... yeah... 4 more days to POP... looking forward to my block leave... i need rest... haiz...

Finally back

2005-05-22T11:00:00.000+08:00

Finalli back... 11days stay in camp thanks to e weekend confine... n bmt is not returning back e weekend cause they say it part of e syllabus... dotz... so we onli can suck thumb n continue on lor... recuit life is realli sad... everytime onli can suck thumb n carry on... haiz... anyway, anything got its pro n cons, so i juz follow e flow la... ha... furthermore, i not realli 11days in camp la... i booked out on mon n tue for e pilot medical n contract signing... so still not bad... lol...

a simple summary of wat happen through tis 11days... SIT test, extremely tired due to e hot weather but quite fun... like orientation games, team building stuffs... i quite satify wif my contribution to e team la... my detail ppl r all nice ppl to work wif... i tink is far more better than my section... sadly said... now is up to e assessor to decide my fate... hopefully can get OCS so can go pilot vocation...

after SIT test is back to normal bmt life... everyday eat fresh food, sleep on comfortable bed, concrete floor n lighting... in exchange for tat, train hard... PT is getting tougher to prepare urself for IPPT... can see now everyone is pushing themselves to reach higher standard... i also cannot slack off la... aim for IPPT gold...

mondae i went for e air force medical checkup... found out tat my nose has some problem... seem serious cause e doctor is quite undecisive in wirting e report... tink it gg to affect my chance in getting into air force... juz pray it's not too serious... haiz... next to tuesday, i went to sign e provisional contract for e pilot vocation... heard frm e clerk e contract will be valid after i passed medical n get into OCS... i'm halfway in... wish nth screw up...

thursday is IPPT... chiong like mad... tried my best... but onli manage to get silver... static station all got 5points... onli 2.4 run, i got 4 points... timing is 10.45... 1 min away from gold... haiz... next wk is e actual test liaoz... don't tink i get improve tat fast within one wk... now my body is aching like hell... e whole wk is all e speed&strength training, AGR... my left calf is experiencing sharp pain, knee cap also... tink my weight to heavy for my leg, especially e joints... after bmt, maybe haf to go c doctor... haiz...

fridae is OC nite... e whole company planned programmes to entertain our commanders... veri fun... my platoon is rated as e best performance... but too bad i was not involve in e performance cause i'm in e banner team... didn't haf time to plan wif them... anyway, i feel proud my platoon... but also on e same moment, i feel disgrace of being in section2... seriously said, we r section tat involve e least in e performance... n there r ppl always give negative comments to e performance... in simple there r a lot of can-talk-cannot-do ppl in my section... n i realli give up on them... now they r having some internal conflict while other section is living together in harmony... by juz looking in e room can see e diff... at free time, other section their ppl usually gather on e table n do stuffs together... as for my section, everyone doing their own stuff at bed area... somtimes i was wondering wat am i doing in e bunk... haiz...

finalli to sat... book out day... for those who has read so far, ur realli got a lot of patience... lol... back to story, i had SOC with 350m rundown... quite fun, not as tiring as wat other said... took mi 9+mins to finish it... tink can 9mins for actual one if there is no waiting time for each obstacle... now i'm looking forward to next SOC... lol... waiting for my muscles to recover then can give my best shot in IPPT n SOC... 17 more days to POP... veri fast hor... haiz...

Booking In

2005-05-10T18:36:00.000+08:00

Todae went back to nanyang... seem like tis is e onli weekday bookout i going to haf throughout bmt, so better go back to c teachers... as usual, first thing is to find council teachers... got mr lau n mr toh to be my referees for my pilot application... get to talk wif them for a while... some updates on council... tis batch council camp will be at pulau ubin, mr toh insisted on tat... ha... tink e elects r gg to haf a gd time down there... n some happenings within e council... for those who r interested, ask mi personally :p todae also get to c minglin for e first time in nanyang... previous few visits to ny all missed her... tis shows how gd she is in pon-ing sch... ha... anyway, onli talk to her for a while then she went off for e badminton competition... verus RJC, confirm kanna trash... lol... quite rush todae... didn't get to c ms choong again... maybe some other time...

kaez... time to book in liaoz... i'm late... (-_-"') byez everyone... be back in two wks... stupid SIT test, haf to confine for one weekend... arghzzz...

Third Bookout

2005-05-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

kaez... time to update my dusty blog... just came back from field camp... super tired... but e camp is quite fun... learn a lot of field skill... firing movement is e best part... wasted our platoon is nt gd enough to prove we r able to learn platoon level firing movement... tink it is quite fun to fight as a platoon... anyway, PC3 taught us a lot of new thing... more than other platoon... but under him is confirm gangho like hell... can't forget e day when we did e movement at e shit holes... proning position on shits... faint... n one more thing... combat ration is not tat bad as wat others said... actualli combat rations r quite nice... fortunately, i care more abt quantity than quality... so i able to survive wif combat ration... ha... overall, e camp is still not bad... it's gd tat i can survive through it wif injuries n heat rashes... sometimes gangho a bit is gd... lol...

Book Out Day

2005-04-23T16:22:00.000+08:00

Finalli, the first official book out day... it's more fun to book out wif everyone... all of us r so high morale todae... though e training todae is super hard, we still run like no ppl business... i pia until i almost vomit during e speed training... lol... next time muz leave some energy... e FS always like to give extra training... stupid derek, i will remember u forever... anyway, apart from tough training, life in tekong is damn gd... maybe i'm in hawk coy, the welfare company of BMTC 1... it's not slack as wat others said la... i muz speak up for hawk coy... we are not slack... we haf a lot of breaks because we r super efficient... we don't spend useless time waiting for training to start... squeeze all nite programme to afternoon so nite we can haf gd rest... in simple, we train hard n rest more... all e sgt,PS,PC,CSM&CO all r reasonable ppl... until now, every punishment we get all got its reason... recuits can accept, no conflict, sgt happy we happy... ha...

ok... control a bit on army issue, if not can write up to three gp essay liaoz... ha... talk a bit abt my life in my bunk... i muz say, it's not veri gd la... got 11 ppl... got 1 platoon cockster, meaning always make stupid mistakes tat sabo e whole platoon... then got 1 cannot adjust to army life, everyday complain... n worst part, most of them like to scold vulgarities for no reason... if they r pissed off, using vulgarity is ok la... but using it in daily conversation, it realli irritates mi... until now i'm still tahan-ing... hopefully, i will not get mad at them... haiz...

anyway, got a few gd news during e time i'm in tekong... first, i got admitted into aerospace engineering... ya... confirm taking it up... confirm NTU liaoz... haha... then second, got excellent performance award from NY... got invitation down to college day... but cannot go cause got SIT test tat day... sad... lastly, i passed e pilot interview... ok... i noe some of ur muz questioning "huh, thought u decided not to be pilot liao?"... in camp i attend e talk by rsaf... so i reconsider... since i gg to be teacher, start early or late does not make a difference... so i decided to go for 8yrs bond, then after tat go be teacher... in simple, i gg for pilot vocation... yup... hopefully i can pass e medical test... i almost fail e sitting height... 99.8cm, more than 100cm will fail... phew...

ok... tat's e summary of wat happen two wks in tekong... veri tired... go sleep liaoz... yawnz...

Enlistment

2005-04-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

Finalli e day is here... three months passed veri fast... no matter wat also need to go in la... so i don't feel nervous or anything... but it juz don't seem to be anyone i noe enlisting tml, so feel a bit sian... juz hope nth screw up in e camp... wanna thanks those ppl who send mi take care msg again... makes mi feel much better... now i'm kinda excited for wat coming up in camp... once again, thanks everyone... c all of ur two wks later...

Council Dinner

2005-04-03T01:25:00.000+08:00

Another wonderful saturdae... spent whole day outside... starting from morning, went to bishan home to teach captain's ball... first time late, thanks to e stupid 55... worse than e turtle 136... anyway, cilents r learning well todae... not bad for a start... too bad i gg tekong next wk... wondering whether i still come or nt... so sad la... juz started... arghzz... hope i can book out early... ya hope more... ha...

afternoon... eat yoshi wif SVC ppl, then went queenway to buy shirts for e coming inter-com competition... wahz... it's almost like gg for scouts hike... thanks to wayne!!! he juz die die don't wan pink... make us haf to walk around e whole building to find darker pink, which i tink is impossible la... anyway, we gave up on pink n chose red... wayne is damn happy abt it... got his favourite colour... n apparently, we didn't buy for e whole afternoon... smart... tat's y i say it's scout hike... lol...

night is e fun part of e day... council dinner over at marina bay... steamboat... yay... nt bad la... managed to get 16ppl include council teachers... got a few last min PS, used to it liaoz... no choice la, some of them still busy wif work... cannot break 17ppl record but i got all five council teachers down... ha... i enjoy to haf their presence... in e past see them always scare scare one cause of e respect factor... now graduated liao feel much closer to them... it realli interesting to noe their little "fun" stories... seem like it's not onli councillors gossip abt teachers, they do gossip abt us... n it's realli a lot... ha... shall keep those stories to myself... i wan to keep myself alive... lol... after dinner, e teachers went kbox... we didn't go along cause it's too ex for e big rm... went esplanade instead... slack there n talk... until 12plus then we take cab home... my first cab for e year... i spent a lot todae... but i'm gg army soon so nvm la... allowance is enough for mi to survive... lol... i haf tried tat, it's possible... ok... time to sleep... counting down to BMT, 4 days...

Crisis or just tink too much?

2005-04-01T10:18:00.000+08:00

yest nite after blogging, i made a quick evaluation of e day b4 i sleep... n i had a bad feeling... ms choong hinted us yest at dome... i get it n i can feel smthing is gg wrong but i don't noe how to say... cannot be like ms choong or jason to describe out e prob... but i can feel there is a lack of balance in e proj... now e impt thing is agenda... i juz hope tat e situation does not turn to be as wat i predicted...

SVC proposal

2005-03-31T23:19:00.000+08:00

todae is a very long day... morning went back to NY to submit SVC proposal to mrs chong... had nearly two hrs talk in e general office... overall e dicussion is gg well, sound promising for e long term NY-SVC partnership... we got e full logistics help... manpower for training... launch day is too near to mid-yr, so can't get e students' help... then after meeting mrs chong, we still went on to talk to mrs koh n nirmala... pe equipment settled, interact club settled... don't know e working style of e interact club, just hope next wed i can pull twenty ppl to vol for e training... anyway, todae our SVC proj is nt onli one busy working in e sch... got one more major proj gg on but e situation seem to turn out quite unpleasant... well... he is our mentor... i feel for sure he will do a better job than us... so we do our best in assisting him to achieve a win-win situation... yup...

after e "good" 5hrs stay in NY, ping n mi accompanied chris to bishan home... limei joined us along e way... had a short discussion wif e bishan home prog IC regarding e captain's ball training... got e confirmation, can start tis sat... e first n maybe a last training for mi... ha... tekong... after bishan home, we went red bus to find travis for chris' appraisal... then we went park mall to meet ms choong n e soli angels... had e great time at dome... we talked abt a lot stuff n learned a lot of new thing again... always can learn by talking to ppl like ms choong n jason... ha... talked for 2hrs then we left dome... most of them went back home, left chris, limei n ping... i accompanied them for dinner at swensen... i chose nt to eat cause my mum prepared dinner for mi... smart... i forgot to inform her i'm nt gg back for dinner... i thought it was a sat... arghz.... anyway, i apparently starved myself until 11pm then i had my "dinner"... very smart (-_-"') tat concludes my long day... tinking back, i had been talking non-stop for 12hrs plus chris,ping n me had made SVC introductory speech for 6,7 times todae... we realised we haf e potential in doing sales cause till now all of e targets r interested in our proj... lol...

MRT accident

2005-03-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

Juz saw from e news, MRT accident at bouna vista... don't noe y until now i still feel uneasy abt mrt accidents... cannot forget wat had happened two years ago... till now, i still try to avoid amk mrt as much as possible... sometimes i realli blame myself for nt talking to her for a few mins, at least juz to make her miss e train... somtimes i realli wish tat e accident can avoided by a longer conversation wif her in e morning... sometimes i even curse those students who pon e morning consultation she arranged for them... don't noe y... i juz keep tinking abt it... maybe her death is so sudden tat i juz cannot accept it... but one thing for sure, it's NOT a suicide... i don't understand y ppl always tink mrt accident is abt committing suicide... can't they juz spare a thought for e ppl who lost their close one in e accident... worse till, got ppl say it's wasting public resources n commuters' time... wth... rub salt on others wound... i realli feel like giving a tight slap on their face... having experiencing once, it's veri hurtful to hear ppl say tat ur close one death is a suicide attempt n a waste of others resource n time... they don't need our sympathy... wat they need is juz our kind understanding n not to make stupid comments abt e death... juz hope everyone can spare a thought for them...

O2 second day

2005-03-24T21:28:00.000+08:00

todae went to sch again... since chris already take leave liao, so we as well come down la... looking for ms choong but ended up still didn't see her... lol... need to wait until thurs liaoz... haiz... anyway, it's second day O2... is all e dance n games activity... i stayed throughout in hall, enjoy e air-con... ha... but luckily i stay in hall, if not i will miss all e fun... muz say e dance instructors r wonderful, e atmosphere is constantly maintained at high level... in fact, we even participated in as yr1... doing all e dance n cheers... fun... n they managed to teach finish our all-star dance n i realli appreciate their effort... thanks guys (if happens tat ur r reading my blog, lol...)

Orientation Two

2005-03-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

Back to NY todae... feel so back at home... lol... todae is orientation two... tis time is a two days one, thanks to e stupid moe... anyway, went back to talk to teachers regarding uni course, esp material eng & major in phy... all of them actualli recommand mi to take material... heard tommy they all taking also... seem like S8 gonna be together for four more years ... tat will quite fun i tink... lol... after talking to some teachers, went to walk around sch wif mr lau n shyuan... crap a lot along e way... got nth better to do... ha... then don't noe slack until wat time chris sms me... ask mi to book time slot to see mrs ho tml... n well i did... but not book time slot... ended up i presented everything abt SVC n e launch event to mrs ho n mrs chong... n shyuan had a 'great' time helping mi to fill up e gaps... lol... a veri impromptu 'presentation la... but mrs ho seem veri interested in e project... high chance... ha... time to rush proposal... jason jia you ba... next thurs muz present up to mrs chong... stress but i'm enjoying it... cause a bit like council work... i realli miss e council life... haiz...

Recovered

2005-03-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

Todae i finalli out of e hse after two days of rest... feeling much better now... went for sdc meeting at evening... sorted out lot of stuffs within two n a half hours... then e usual few, we went to starbuck to have a drink n chit chat... standard, jason started his great 'lecture' again... lol... not bad... i learned a few new theories from him todae... hmm... seem like socialogy is a very interesting subject... too bad i'm nt tat inclined in arts, so socialogy is a straight "NO" for mi... maybe a minor, hmm... i will see into tat... yup...

Scouts hike

2005-03-19T01:48:00.000+08:00

tis entry is typed straight after i came back frm scouts hike... got e feeling... now is super tired plus a pair of aching legs plus sore throat... a bit weird... went tis afternoon wif mild fever n surprisinly i recovered on way... but i got e sore throat for no reason... haiz... n now i feel so bad... cause i PS them halfway... actualli shld walk until 3AM, complete 33km... but i onli completed 15km then i catch e last train back home... nt feeling quite well... haiz... shld haf bring along my full uni then can go on e rest 18km... feel so regret now... idiot... anyway, i start to appreciate e existance of public transport... imagine... from punggol to little india... took us 4hrs to finish, 15km... n took train back hougang, less than 20mins... realli got e feeling tat it's a luxury to haf public transport... lol... sounds kua zhang but u go try u will understand wat i mean... my legs still aching... haiz...

Sentosa Trip

2005-03-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

Finalli get a chance to type an entry... was busy doing e council blog recently n hardly got anymore time to type an entry... though now don't haf e feeling of yest, at least is a worth mention event... ya... talking abt yest, it is a whole day of fun over at sentosa wif my council frenz... ya... it's council outing again... seem we r having at least one outing every wk... lol... tis time got 9ppl came... not bad for a working day... at first we played beach volleyball but we gave up, thanks to hot sun which makes e beach looked like a hot frying pan... n i so happy to hear tat SVC meeting is cancelled last min... sry chris... lol... no meeting means can play until veri tired also nvm... ha... n so we had our sea captain ball... turned out to be quite fun n tiring also... we played until we finalli can tahan anymore n start packing up for a buffet at sakae... my third time tis yr... haiz... get to see e emotionless waitress n e "cannot waste food" auntie again... kok, shyuan n mi keep making fun of them... we r so bad... lol... after e dinner, most of time i'm half-concious liaoz... so blur blur went home wif chris n kok... n ya... i got a mild fever after tat... my first sick tis yr (-_-"')

New blog layout

2005-03-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

Todae is i-am-too-free day again... i realli hate starting of e week, nothing to do at all... no one to go out wif as most r working... so sian... looking forward to weekend, got scouts hike n volunteer work... n most prob i'm gg to learn airbrushing tis wk... haf to go all e way down to parklane shopping mall... 30mins journey n i'm tinkin of a way to bring my model down... it's so ma fan la... arghzz... juz hope after going through all these troubles, i can learn a gd airbrushing skill...

anyway, IATF day means new stuffs... can see, i did a new blog layout to kill time... it's my first self-created blog skin... used one of my abstract wallpaper as background n some other programme skin to make it... also copied some ideas frm chris' blog... chris, thanks for sharing ya config... now blog is much brighter... in e past always use black background, veri dull... n more space to put images, wait for another IATF day then i will upload them up... hope ur like e new layout =)

"Recharged"

2005-03-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

I feel so recharged after e council outing todae... although it's almost e same activity we r gg through, i still enjoy it a lot... muz thanks jiashyuan for organising... ya... always looking forward to council outing... tink gg out wif councillors is e onli time when i can realli forget abt all e unhappy stuffs... now i feeling better n tinking clearer... also muz thanks those who offers mi a listening ear whenever i need it... your noe who u r so no need to say ur name... i feel so fortunate to haf such a wonderful group of council frenz... ya... tink it's just e power of friendship tat keeps mi gg ba... thanks guys... next up, story telling session again... tis time is abt friendship... learn to treasure friendship... yup...

Stop and Think

This story was about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco.

"Mom and Dad, I am coming home. I have a favor to ask. I have a friend I would like to bring with me."

"Sure," they replied, "we'd like to meet him."

"There is something you should know. He was hurt pretty bad in fighting. He stepped on a land mine and lost an arm and a leg. He has no where else to go, and I want him to come and live with us."

"I am sorry to hear that son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere else to live."

"No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us."

"Son," said the father, "you don't know what you are asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on his own."

At that point the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A few days later, however, they got a phone call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, so they were told. The police believed it was suicide. The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror, they also discovered something they didn't know. Their son only had one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story were like many of us. We find it easy to love the ones who are good looking or fun to have around but we don't like people who inconvenience us, or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are. Thankfully, there is someone who won't treat us that way. Someone who loves us with unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up we are. Tonight, before you tuck yourself in for the night, say a little prayer that God will give you the strength you need to accept people as they are, and help us all to be more understanding of those who are different from us. There's a miracle called -FRIENDSHIP - which dwells in the heart. You don't know how it happens or when it gets started. But you know the special lift it always brings and you realize that FRIENDSHIP is God's most precious gift! Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us. So today, tell your friend how much you care for them and treasure that friendship with that special person forever.
*END*

Meaningful Story

2005-03-12T02:15:00.000+08:00

Now is 2+AM, almost one hour after i woke up... was surfing e net to find some meaningful story... i feel sometimes these stories help to make me think, providing hints to my life... yup... n i found a few good ones... i post one first, it's abt balance in life which i wish to achieve also... so remember to take care of e four glass balls... *btw i will bold few sentence tat i feel is veri meaningful...

Balance in Life
Imagine life as a game which you are juggling some five balls in the air. You name them - work, family, health, friends, and spirit, and you're keeping all of these in the air. You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other four balls spirit, family, health and friends are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life. How? Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different, each of us is special. Don't see your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you. Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless. Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life. Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. Don't be afraid to admit that you are less then perfect. It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave. Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings. Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been, but also where you are going. Don't forget that a person's greatest emotional need is to be appreciated. Don't be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless, a treasure you can always carry easily. Don't use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved.

"LIFE IS NOT A RACE, BUT A JOURNEY TO BE SAVORED EACH STEP OF THE WAY. YESTERDAY IS HISTORY, TOMORROW IS A MYSTERY, AND TODAY IS A GIFT: THAT'S WHY WE CALL IT – THE PRESENT."

We can either make ourselves miserable or we can make ourselves strong - the effort is the same. The emphasis is the key.

I hate it

2005-03-12T01:29:00.000+08:00

I woke at 1+AM, not because i slept early... but it's e loud discussion over e same stuff tat makes me cannot sleep... recently i got pissed off easily whenever they start discussing abt e company stuff... n they always like to bring it back home... tat makes my life at home veri bad now... sometimes my reaction gets extreme n i don't noe wat's e reason... it's juz my natural reaction... i don't realli noe wat i realli wan... so lost... n tired also... can't get my sleep now... they r still talking... don't feel like voicing out in e late nite also... so i juz stay on by e com quietly spend my nite, listening to FF classic music... hopefully tis nite is not gg to be long... nitez...

Way of Life

2005-03-10T15:38:00.000+08:00

The Businessman and The Fisherman

What do you really hope to achieve in life?

Read this story and you may find that what you are
always hoping to achieve, you may be already have it.

There was once an American businessman who was sitting
by the beach in a small Mexican village. As he sat, he
saw a Mexican fisherman rowing a small boat towards
the shore and noticed that the fisherman has caught a
quite number of big fishes that is known to be a
delicacy. The American was really impressed and ask
the fisherman,
"How long does it take you to catch so many fishes?"

The fisherman reply; Oh, just a short while."

"Then why don't you stay longer at sea and you could
catch even more?" The businessman was astonished.

The fisherman simply does not agree, "This is enough
to feed my whole family?" he says.

The businessman then asked: " So, what do you do for
the rest of the day then ? "

The fisherman reply; "Well, I usually wake up early in
the morning, go out to sea and catch a few fishes,
then I would go back and play with my kids. In the
afternoon, I will take a nap with my wife, and evening
comes, I will join my buddies in the village for a
drink, we played guitar, sing and dance throughout the
night. My day was ever so complete and carefree.?"

The businessman does not agree with his way of life
and offered a suggestion to the fisherman.

"I am a PhD holder graduated from Harvard University,
specialises in business management. I could help you
to become a more successful person. From now on, you
have to spend more time at sea and try to catch as
many fishes as possible. And when you have save enough
money, you could buy a bigger boat and catch even more
fishes. As you go on, you will be able to afford to
buy more boats, recruit more fishermen and lead a team
of your own. Soon you will be able to set-up your own
company, your very own production plant for canned
food and do direct selling to your distributors. At
that time, you will have moved out of this village and
to Mexico city, and then expand your operation to LA,
and finally to New York city, where you can set-up
your HQ to manage all your other branches."

The fisherman asks, "So, how long would that take?"

The businessman reply: "About 15 to 20 years"

The fisherman continued, "And after that ?"

The businessman laugh heartily, " After that, you can
live like a king in your own house, and when the time
is right, you can go public and float your shares in
the Stock Exchange, by then you will be rich, your
income will be coming in by the millions!! "

The fisherman ask, " And after that ? "

The businessman says " After that, you can finally
retire, you can move to a house by the fishing
village, wake up early in the morning and catch a few
fishes, then return home to play with the kids, have a
nice afternoon nap with your wife, and when evening
comes, you can join your buddies for a drink, play the
guitar, sing and dance throughout the night!! "

The fisherman was puzzled, " Isn't that what I am
doing now ?? "

So, what does one really hope to achieve in life, do
we really need to work so hard in life? What do you
hope to accomplish in the end?
*END*

A very meaningful story i feel... especially when a while ago i quarrel wif my sis over my father business stuff... realising tat my tinking is totalli diff wif my two sis or shld i say i don't haf e business mind... e story actualli so-called "enlighted" me... i shldn't ever have e thought of helping out... it's e wrong path i chose to approach my goal... i preferrd to be e fisherman... n i haf decided... after completing e SVC project, i'm gg to stand clear off it totalli... i'm getting sick of it now... arghz....

Stay strong

2005-03-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

Got a lot to say but don't know how to put them in words. Juz hope everyone continue to tink positive, stay strong n fight on. Wat's impt now is how u see urself, not how others see u. Muz believe in urself. Jia you n gd luck.

A level result

2005-03-04T19:24:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy... ya... i got my 3As... although my GP got C6, at least is better than fail... now i can go for aerospace engineering... chance is slim but it is still possible... lol... i still can't believe i got it... expecting a ABB... tink my hardwork realli pays off la... everyday 9-6 camp in sch for 3mths... e maddest mugging i ever did... wat my bro said is realli true... O level CMI does not mean A level CMI... went in NY with a 13points, combined sci n extremely bad english... ya... somemore i joined council... at first thought i'm gg to die... but thanks to council n of course Ms Choong who taught me a lot in my JC life, i managed to pull through with a good result... omg... now i'm so inspired to be a JC teacher... i wanna be like ms choong, inspiring others n making e impossible possible... may be teacher if can't get aerospace... yup...

Although i'm veri happy wif my result, todae i didn't smile much cause' some of my frenz didn't score wat they expected... don't noe how to comfort them cause' i tink i may juz make them feel more sad... hopefully they get over it... ya... pls don't give up... your can do it one... with determination, everthing is possible... wish everyone can get into e course they want... good luck everyone...

Freak out...

2005-03-04T09:25:00.000+08:00

Now is morning 9am... just got freaked out by ms choong sms... she sms-ed me a 'haha' n offers no further explanation... omg... hopefully it's going to be a great news for me, not e opposite one... i can't keep myself relax now... my heart is pumping like mad... e same feeling as taking A level... it's realli bad for e heart but cannot control... arghzz... i so damn stress now... 5 hrs to go... it's gonna be veri long... so i going to flood myself wif all e conversation wif classmates n councillors to relief myself... it's going to be e longest day...

Bored to the max

2005-03-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

i'm realli bored to e max... almost everyday i'm staying at home... don't wanna go out too many times also... cause i noe once out of e hse, i start spending money n i don't haf such luxury now... all pay is in e bank now n my debit card is still no here... financially, i'm stucked in no where... arghzz... anyway... make full use of free time, i renovated my blog... put e big pic on e left, it's abt love... got it from email... find it quite interesting so i put it in... n i also found out e main cause of my blog lagness, tagboard... apparently, it got a lot of errors n i cannot anything to do it... oh well... can't expect much out of free stuff... lol... since it's not e pics problem, i carry on my pics gallery... if tml still free, i may upload some nice pics... kekez... i'm so free...

oh!!! fridae getting back 'A' level result... 2.30pm back sch... good luck everyone... *pray*

Fed up!!!

2005-02-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

Arghzz... it's realli veri irritating... don't understand y there r ppl tat can be so narrow-minded... throwing temper for no purpose... totalli irrational n irritating... i realli feel sad for those kind-hearted ppl who are always get bullied by those narrow-minded idiots... y can't they just a bit more sensitive to others feeling??? or just be a bit more considerate in their usage of words??? the world does not revolve around them... pls don't be so self-centred n spare a thought for others... pls start self-reflecting n appreciate others... life is short... y haf to make urself so miserable by trying to prove urself being superior over others??? it's saddening to see tat such ppl does exist... especially being my close one, i cannot do anything to it... i don't noe it's going to last how long but one thing for sure, it's not going turn out good... haiz...

Happy Founder Day

2005-02-22T12:26:00.000+08:00

Happy Founder Day to all scouts & guides!!!

Today is 22nd of Feb, World Scouts Day... finalli tis time got chance to go back sec sch for e ceremony... missed two times due to JC activities... haiz... cause of jc, i had missed a lot of things... now i'm still a venture just because i missed e promotion ceremony... arghzz... todae almost need to stand in e squad... muz quickly buy e rover flash n emblem... scouts hike is coming up... anyway, todae can see tat e scouts' standard dropped a lot... quite sad... cause now e activity switched to fridae, all e leaders not time to come down to guide them... haiz... tis fridae i'm gg back... maybe help out in teaching... now i'm trying to convince songhan to let mi take all e patrol leaders... wish to help them to develop some leadership skills... hopefully, songhan will accept my proposal soon... i left not much time, gg army soon... haiz...

CPSS test

2005-02-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

long time naber update... cny period, so lazy to type la... everyday is play, sleep n maybe some work... lol... some updates... i finalli finish my job... 5000units all settled... tis long boring job has finalli come to an end... now can take a long rest b4 gg NS... also got chance to start training up... if not confirm get sabo in camp... one more thing, i passed my CPSS test!!! yeah... it's e pilot test... it's realli veri lucky cause i totalli screwed up my emergency flight simulation part n yet i passed... lol... maybe e passing mark is low... wat's more impt is e interview... hopefully i can pass it... oh btw... my parents finalli allow mi to go for pilot... thanks to my siblings for convincing them... now i can go for it without much worries... haha... i'm getting lucky tis new yr... tat's gd =)

No more korean lesson...

2005-02-06T14:42:00.000+08:00

so sian... hyung shick has gone back to Korea liaoz... no more korean lesson during work... learned a lot abt korean culture during these few days working wif him... quite fun even though it's quite hard communicating wif him... both parties haf to depend on e korean-english dictionary... btw i realised tat korean n chinese culture r quite closely linked... e.g. they used traditional chinese for their name, they even learn to pronounce those words... their formation of word is almost same as chinese, they got own set of "pinyin" one... n they also celebrate CNY, got reunion dinner n believe in buddism also... veri interesting... now i noe how to pronounce n write almost all korean words but not sure abt e meaning of e word... lol... most of e time i depend on e dictionary one... not bad la... learn a lot just within e short three days... maybe i will go for korean language if i got e time... it's quite easy to pick up since it almost similar to chinese... hehe...

next wk is cny... yeah... onli need to work one day... gd... can rest... lol... e stock is going to finish soon... but heard from hyung shick tat e new software is coming in... which means we got job to do again... seem like tis job is nt going to end... i don't mind la... can earn more... lol...

Sa Rang Hea

2005-02-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

hmm... today second day work... still e same thing... nth special, tink tis wk will be continue on wif e same tone... so don't tink going to blog unless anything special happens... oh btw... i got e foto of e "sa rang hea" wrote by hyung shick, e korean guy... find e words quite interesting so i upload it... lol... got chinese words which we tried to teach him...

Back to work

2005-02-01T07:13:00.000+08:00

It's monday again... back to work... finalli new stocks r in... new version update... now got a lot of stuffs to do... very long naber do software update, almost forgot how to do it... lol... luckily none of my units got system crash... phew... anyway, today finalli get to know more abt e korean guy who has been working wif since last fridae... his english not very gd so took some time communicating wif him... overall quite a handsome guy n quite friendly also... we at first thought he is just an korean engineer to repair all e crashed units but in fact he is e assistant manager of HDT... wow... not bad ar... maybe is because he is one of e few tat can speak english ba... oh btw, he taught us how to write n pronounce "i love you" n his name in korean... sound quite funny but veri interesting... maybe tml try learning a few more words from him... we also try to teach him some chinese words... lol... culture xchange during work, we realli got nth better to do... wahaha...

Nothing to do

2005-01-27T01:04:00.000+08:00

haiz... i'm super bored... consecutive three days no work... e stock is forever on e way... don't noe wat r starhub doing... don't tink they r planning to launch tis new product, thanks to e wonderful korea design fault... kelvin promised us fridae confirm got work, hopefully it realli is... it's no fun rotting at home... so sianz... haiz...

Council outing

2005-01-23T11:44:00.000+08:00

Finalli the first council outing of e year... tis time is not organise by feb anymore... he is now at indo having gd life down there... lol... anyway, tis time is jiashyuan who planned it... no bad, she got 17 ppl down for e dinner at seoul garden at taka... e dinner session is damn fun la... got 4 NS men to share their interesting life in tekong... gossip abt wanwei... andre's camouflage using e vege to avoid his officer... wanwei's disasterous cooking n more... tink i spent more of time laughing than eating... bad for digestion... now i experiencing stomachache... arghzz... it worse than eating at marina... don't noe y my stomach juz don't like seoul garden food... anyway, after e dinner, we went to chinatown again... went at around 10+ n e place is damn crowded... we spent more time squeezing than shopping... we guys naber buy anything la... is onli e girls do all e buying... chinatown realli got nth much to buy la... e stocks r almost e same as e previous time we came... so i don't feel so amazed as tat time does... but tat nite is not wasted, at least get to catch up wif e council frenz... hope there will be more outings to come... n i got a few testimonies on my hand... these ppl r now classified under super rare appearance... those who don't haf ya testimonies quickly take frm me...

btw... CNY house visit... 12nd Feb, saturday... n 13rd maybe, if there r more hse to visit... who can make it, leave ur name at tagboard or comment session... who is willing to open up ur hse, make a remark there... thanks... i tinking of gg andre's hse again... i wanna explore his room... lol...

No work today

2005-01-19T17:03:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it... todae no work again... it's so stupid... went all e way down then they said no stock... the boss didn't tell kelvin, our supervisor, in advance... tink kelvin got damn fed up wif e boss also cause' he gave e "screwed up" face like wat we did... seriously tis morning we juz sat down there watching tv n wait for further instruction, which ended is fall out... waste of time n my transport fee!!! i tink tis week is super slack... tml most prob no work also, then fri is holiday... so effectively, i onli work for tue cause mon also no work due to no stock also... omg... starhub is realli inefficient la... somemore their products r veri buggy one, especially e recent launched new scv tv receiver... out of 2500, got around 1500 r faulty... tink sticking to e old version one is better...

anyway, after 1+hr of "work", we went to play pool at SSC... didn't play long la... at lunchtime went to meet my mum n sis at sengkang... they going bank so i shun bian go apply debit card... but ended up is a wasted trip again... in order to apply, i haf to change my account to signature-based but i lost my IC... n now i haf to wait until 12/2... sian... arghzz... i'm so fed up wif e person who took my wallet... curse like hell... i haf faced a lot of inconveniences due to e lack of IC... now i realli got a feel of how impt IC is... haiz...

busy ar...

2005-01-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

Second wave of flooding ar... tink everyone relax a bit la... i doubt e person will own up... tink he or she juz got damn fed up abt us then come my blog n tag la... oh well... it's understandable... i mean we did tat too sometimes... it's normal... ya... so juz let e matter rest la... treat it as a feedback lor... at least now we noe how they feel n wat we shld do la... so cool down... no use "shouting" at e person while he/she juz give u e heck care attitude cause he/she juz got damn pissed off... if after tagging in my blog can let e person feels better, juz let it be lor... i anything one... freedom of speech :)

Funny 27th

2005-01-12T21:51:00.000+08:00

Lolx!!! stunting sia... my blog becomes e battleground liaoz... oh well... got nth to say... cause i already said... wash hand le... as for e 27th somebody, i agree wif ping n huiz... leave down ur name... if ur whole council tinks e same way, put it as one, 27th... if is whole committee, put ur comittee name... if ur own opinion, put ur name... be more responsible of wat u say... upholding reputation is harder than building reputation... it realli reflects bad abt 27th by putting "27TH somebody"... ya... tat's all...

Back to today... no work... went for pilot selection test... found out tat UCPTS is a 8-years bond contract... omg... so long... anyway i already passed up e application form liaoz... no going back... now is waiting for e interview... pray... letter muz come... back to work... sian...

Sorry 27th...

2005-01-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

Oh man... tat's bad... just one night got everyone "shooting" all over... seem like i'm not e onli one giving comments... well realli hates tis... with all e arugments going around, u will never know who is going to be correct... ok fine... straight to point... didn't noe tat we cannot wear casual for tat nite... my fault... cause i'm e one wearing... n ya... don't play all star cause e j1 don't noe... true... meet e needs of huge crowd r more impt... as for e judge thing... i don't noe... i wanna go down on tat day also cannot... seem like e 27th also got veri hot over these issues... well... muz agree tis time they r hitting on e right target... seem like it's time to wash our hands off them... ya... no use arguing also... when both at fault, e argument will never end... solution??? don't noe... but for wat i choose to do... next time back to sch, don't get involve wif 27th anymore, both directly n indirectly... ok... tat's all for it...

Disco Night

2005-01-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

Yeah... finalli finish e last working day of e week... althought e job is veri slack, it's still veri sian to do e same things everyday... todae we carry on wif e same things... do work, listen music, read comics n talk craps... haha... now we all got crazy over GTO... we keep imitating his action in e comics... it's damn funny la... realli got a lot fun todae... lol... hope tis will continue on... e irritating freddy starts to give troubles to us... keep complaining la... keep stressing ur supervisor... tink he realli got nth to do... every morning like to speak loudly in dialect outside ur room... can be louder than e radio... realli irritating... juz hope he stay away from us for e rest of e days :p

anyway... after job i went back ny for disco night... chiong all e way from bouna vista to nanyang... ended up it turns out a disappointment... y??? over a small matter... but i'm still feel veri unhappy abt tat... they specially invite 26th down but ended up naber play e all star song... then we wish to delicate e song to council teachers, ended up also cannot... e DJ doesn't haf e song... ask councillors, say don't haf... ya... all e discs we left for them r all lost la... so good rite... ya again... it's just a small matter... but to me is a matter of respect also la... i tink they don't even see e purpose of inviting us down... fine... i used to tat... i already "immuned" to whatever "surprises" they can give me... so i also heck care la... juz play to e max wif 26th... after e disco nite, we went mac to eat n talk talk... didn't stay for debriefing... juz feedback to mr tan then run off liaoz... feel so "un-wanted"... no point staying back late... rather spend e time crapping wif 26th... tink we crap until 10smthing then go home... got veri tired after all e dancing... so it's time to sleep... end here... *lights off*

Working

2005-01-05T20:24:00.000+08:00

Finalli got time to update my blog... now working le... so hardly got energy left to type an entry... but e job is quite slack la... put in nice term, i'm working as e product inspector for starhub... lol... actualli is just checking n updating of e cabletv receiver... $50/day... quite a gd pay... but haf to work at bouna vista... need 1+hr of transportation... so sian... anyway... e job quite standard one la... everyday do e same things... got 6 of us... need to finish checking 5000units... estimate can last us 3weeks... our first day work is super boring la... sit in a small room, staring at e tv screen from 9 to 6... then todae we smart liaoz... bring radio n reading material, got comics, newspapers n novels... tml heok kia planning to bring bingo to play... lol... we r realli super slack ar... cause supervisor also a slacker... wahaha... he keep asking us to do slowly... so we even watch tv during work... omg... i never expect working can be so fun... haha... can listen to mp3, read comics plus watch tv... like going chalet... everyday we r tinking of new ways of entertainment... so fun... it will be best if there r more units coming in... then we can do more n earn more... haha...

New Year Resolution

2005-01-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

First post of the new year 2005... finalli the hectic year 2004 has ended... wif all e exam stress, wars n disasters... but may say 2004 is e most fulfilling year for me... it's e year which i learned n grew e most... can say i haf made full use of my time tat year... wat i learned from council, spend one hour like two hours... double e efficiency... year 2004 also let mi haf a taste of being a super mugger... doing TYS n past-year papers like hell... almost went mad, thanks to Fmath mechanics... lol... it's realli no fun doing mechanics... now tinking back... i'm so proud of myself... never expect i can be so effective... ultimately, must thanks Ms Choong & Mr Lau for giving me e chance n guiding mi throughout council term...

Now to 2005... one day nearer to pilot selection test, 'A' level result, NS enlistment... starting of a new year... new targets to achieve... firstly, of course is to get straight 'A's for my 'A" level... secondly, to pass my pilot selection tests n airgrading, successfully get into air force... lastly, to get UCPTS, University Cadet Pilot Training Scheme... wish tis year will be as fulfilling as last year...

Back to NY

2004-12-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

todae went back nanyang to see ogl refresher... also wanna take tis chance to see how is e 27th doing... well... made some interesting obversations but i will keep them to myself... anyway... finalli get to see e 27th dance... quite nice i must say... e dance steps quite easy to learn... me n junhui manage to learn half of e dance todae but some moves a bit wrong ar... thanks to ur wonderful teacher, fish... lol.. hopefully can learn e whole dance correctly when i come back for O1... after e dance is some clan stuff la... quite boring... so went off wif des they all for lunch... des n liping going peicai to register for relief teaching... n i'm thinking of doing tat also... maybe will go back HIHS ba... at least got mrs goh to help mi... long time naber go back le... hope she still remembers mi... lol... relief will be my last way out... i'm still jobless... arghzz...

oh btw... i haf confirmed my attendance wif CMPB... yup... i'm going for e test no matter wat... recently my sis also join my parents in convincing me... well... in reply, i displayed our family trait, stubborn... so she ended up also give up... tink e issue is still e hot topic in our hse... until now, no one in tis hse support my idea la... juz hope my bro quickly come back from UK n help mi to say smthing... if not, i will die at home hearing their "lectures"...

negotiation

2004-12-27T20:29:00.000+08:00

haiz... my pilot dream is getting no way... tried convincing my parents during dinner time... but failed again... for e same reason, my safety... they realli don't care whether pilot is prestigious or not... they don't give a damn abt e benefits of being pilot... now wat they wan is juz me stay out of dangerous job... haiz... realli don't noe wat to do... especialli my father... don't even wanna listen to my explanation... my mum said wanna go pray to god n ask whether i shld be pilot or not... i ok wif tat... as long as can let her feel an xin can liaoz... now i realli leave everything to god...

Air Force

2004-12-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

Yeah... i got e best christmas present in my whole life... a letter from the air force... an invitation for e pilot selection test... thought my chance is gone after e NDU selection test... now got chance again... msg kinsin just now n found out tat he already passed all tests... waiting to go aust for pilot grading... haiz... realli wish i can be like him... but... haiz... as expected, my parents don't allow... again e same reason... it's dangerous... if accident happens, can't even find e body... i'm like now damn pissed... it's like they just wan me be a super-slack cum useless infantry... first is the diving unit, if is not i follow my parents' wish, i will already took up e offer during interview... second is OCS, they wan me to slack during bmt so won't get in... now third is air force... guess wat is e reason they wan me to give... tell e officer tat i don't dare to operate plane... n i give the face (-_-"') yeah... u expect them to believe...

it is understandable tat parents will always be concerned of their children safety... i noe they realli care a lot for me... if i was them, i will tink e same way also... tat's y i actualli gave up e idea of NDU n OCS... felicia always say i slack n if singapore depends on us tis kind of people sure die... i don't realli feel good after hearing tat... but i cannot argue back cause' e truth is i did slack in e NDU test... if i get to choose, i will be enlisting along wif johnson to NDU... anyway, now cmpb demands a attendance confirmation in within two days n i still yet to persuade my parents... i doubt we can get to any agreement... kinsin suggested me to go for e tests first, then tell my parents... but it's not going last long cause' one day i sure need their signature for air force admission... i'm realli in a dilemma now... can anyone pls tell me wat to do???

Should i pursue my dream of being a pilot or follow my parents' wish???

my wallet...

2004-12-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

haiz... todae is a mixture of happy n sad... sad thing first... i lost my wallet!!! arghzz... i realli don't understand how i lost it lahz... i wuite sure tat i didn't misplace it... but it juz disappear... arghzz... don't tink singapore has so mani pro pickpocket... or maybe is juz i suai to meet one... haiz... now wat i care is just my IC... i need it for my job interview... arghzz... e person who took my wallet better return mi e IC... if not, i will curse him for my whole life...

ok... push those bad experience aside... happy thing... todae is my ltc outing... not everyone came... mostly r guys lahz... quite surprise tat tis yr e guys r more active... during camp, it's also e guys who replied our "love letter"... then todae programme also not veri interesting... went kfc eat lunch... supposed to be seoul garden but e two "hui"s don't wan... then after lunch, we played pool... after tat, we had a veri long crapping session at lido... well... seem boring... but we r damn pro at self-entertaining... lol... just like in camp... it's realli fun going wif them... can be doing e most boring thing but still enjoy a lot of fun... tat's smthing veri special... realli wish there will be a full gathering wif them soon...

collapse of an organisation...

2004-12-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

Got realli tired after whole day of swimming n shopping wif my council frenz... back home i spent quite a while daydreaming in front of my com... then smthing suddenly came across my mind... smthing abt e collapse of an organisation, which i discussed wif someone yest... then e first thing came to my mind is e 27th... it's not tat they r not gd or wat... maybe it is because recently a lot had happened to them n there r lots of rumor flowing around... for those who r reading my blog now, 27th may not be as bad as wat ur tink they r... don't ask mi y... i had heard a lot of things from diff sources n i strongly feel tat we r realli looking at e 27th at a wrong angle... e problem is not as simple as it seem to be... anyway... don't wanna see they fail... realli wish they can pull through O1 n be bonded together... haiz... realli feel sad for those who haf to work extra hard to cover up those hypocrites cum black sheep aka slacker... juz hope those hardworking one can do a great job...

I'm tired...

2004-12-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

i'm damn tired of it... y it's always like tat? y u always haf to disappoint mi again n again... for 8 years... i haf been standing by ur side whenever i can... but it's always e same problem over n over again... y can't u just accept it... y i always haf to worry for u while u just make urself look hopeless n don't work thing out... can't u understand e problem will just keep recurring if u don't face e fact... come on... pls understand... i'm realli tired... i can't help u forever... i'm giving up... sorry... it's cruel... but i cannot take it anymore... don't call mi anymore... it realli makes mi look stupid when u just call mi when u haf problem... come on... i'm not counsellor... i veri tired of tat... i wanna rest... pls stay away from mi...

O1 dinner

2004-12-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

Finalli we had our O1 adhoc dinner which is todae... it's like almost one year after orientation one... anyway e waiting is worth it... we went sakae sushi over at funan... got VIP room somemore... haha... gd gd ... but todae not e whole adhoc there... mr toh also last min "put us aeroplane"... muz be scare of paying e bill... lol... we ate quite a lot... i tink it costs around $180... n all settled by fish... chairman treat... lol... wondering who came wif tis wonderful idea of chairman treating e adhoc... wahaha... after dinner, we went straight back home la... cause few of them got work tml... like got sch tml like tat... haiz... soon i will be like them also... tiring... but i tink is better than rotting at home lahz...

tml going for a swim... yeah... long time no swim... hope e sun can stay behind e cloud for e morning... i don't wanna get anymore darker... ltc is already veri serious liaoz... sunburn to e limit... e sunblock lotion never works for me one... tink i going to stay tat dark forever... ok... time to sleep... hmm... i still feel veri full now... lol...

Mini chalet...

2004-12-08T10:08:00.000+08:00

Yawn~~ just got back from kokleong hse... damn tired now... yesterdae played non-stop mahjong until 5am!!! tink is my highest record... anyway, tis time kok's "house warming" not mani ppl turn up lahz... onli got six ppl... so sian lor... somemore onli four stay overnight... so we played mahjong thoughout e nite... after mahjong we still continue playing e puzzle fighter, a super old game la... long time naber play but surprisingly i still can win... lol... tink everyone is tired, lack of concentrate... play until 6am we cannot tahan anymore, so light off...

mi n junhui took two hours of power nap, then we go jogging... lol... luckily i didn't faint during e jog... muz say tat sengkang is a veri nice place for jogging... full of plants n nice scenery... totalli diff from hougang... actualli live kok's hse there not bad... peaceful n nice environment... i like it... next time jogging muz specially go down to sengkang liaoz... hougang everywhere is full of cars' exhaust fumes... lack of e smell of nature... e punggol park also don't seem to be like a park la... turn off... yawn~ veri tired liaoz... go take power nap le... buaiz... *snorez*

NY Bash!!!

2004-12-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

Went rouge yest... realli cannot tahan... clubbing is realli not suitable for mi... if is not because of fish they all, i will never step in there... but at first i still quite like e place... starting all r NY ppls n e music is gd for dancing... haf fun dancing wif all e councillors, 24th to 27th... lol... first time seeing so mani batches of councillors together... but e situation started to turn bad after 10 smthing... e public starts to come n they smoke like hell lah... idiots... i got damn irritated by e smoke... my nose n eyes realli cannot take it tat i had to evacuate out of e club... tink is at around time i left e club, tat DJ changed e music style... tink is reggae or trance... quite turn off... ended up feb they all got lot of complaints... but overall e event is quite successful... happy for them also... first attempt can be so successful... well done...

anyway, we left at around 1am... kok got drunk then chris is half-conscious due to tiredness... 136 gang left onli me conscious... lol... ended up i haf to "escort" both of them back home... then back home i realised my shirt is full of e irritating smoke smell... luckily my mum didn't suspect, if not i sure get a lot of "discussions" wif her... lol...

LTC~!!!

2004-12-03T01:56:00.000+08:00

tis yr ltc rocks!!! more fun, more friendship, more bonding n more learning... it is not exaggerating to say tat tis yr is hundreds times better than last yr... partly is maybe because last yr is realli a nightmare for mi due to e facil... but e main reason is of course of e existance of e people i get to work with... e teachers, facilitators n my group members... 5 days of camp fully packed with fun, team spirit n learning... it will be great if it's longer... no doubt, at moment when they announced break camp, i already started to miss everyone already... i must say it is e best camp i ever had...

at e beginning, thought e camp will be a hard time as i totalli don't noe my two partners, huifen n huishan... but thing does went out of expected... we actualli started to crap a lot at e briefing day... throughout e camp is e best wif their existance... won't forgot e never-ending jokes we had during e meal time... also get to learn a lot of things from both of them... surprisingly, i learned more things than i had last yr when i was a trainee... besides two of them, i'm also grateful to know a lot of senior facil, especially e guys... for having all e guys' talk we had at bunk one... lol...

talking abt my ltc grp, Gandalf... two words, they rock... we started off with onli 10 members, e smallest grp... then we had e stunting appearance of gwen... e team actualli started off quite bad... somemore they like to ignore e facil... wat e hell... it's onli until second day then they started to improve... n i'm veri impressed tat they haf improved greatly throughout e camp... they r always well-motivated (thanks to us, lol) n work perfectly well together... tat's a team tat i like... i wish i can be part of e team as a trainee, instead of being facil... haiz... but nvm... getting to work wif them is good enough... i miss those nights when i tried to stay awake to write motivating message for them... i love them hell lot... they e best grp of people tat i haf guided so far... i can't wait to haf e outing wif them... lol...

tink i gonna end tis never-ending typing... tis 5 days camp is more than wat it seem to be... those experience i had in there is more than wat i can describe... tink it's hard to get to experience tat once again... these five days shall forever be in my mind...

Freedom~!!!

2004-11-26T08:13:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah!!! A level is finalli over... no more going sch to mug... no more camping in e "cold prison"... n of course no more reading which takes away my 6/6 perfect eyesight... arghz... seriously, i can't believe had gone through these three mths of mugging... non-stop study, almost everyday 9-5... no diff from working... it's realli stress like hell... i even haf to force myself to study while watching tv during e exam period... tink my heart has weaken a lot after those stressful moments... worse than sitting on roller-coaster... anyway it's over le... time to relax n play... haha... switch back to gaming mode...

now is realli free after exam... n my first day of freedom is to pack bag for tml LTC camp... arghzz... y like tat??? actualli now can go my scouts camp kpo a bit but scare once i'm in, cannot get out liaoz... so choose to stay away... lol... so i decided to slack whole day at home n pack my bag... haha... i'm still tinking wat to do for e next four mths b4 going ns... i will try to a get job hopefully by mid-dec... then maybe go for driving licence ba... my mum said if now don't learn, next time in uni/working then veri hard to find time to learn... not sure of e minimum time to obtain e licence but i tink i will give it a try lor... since i'm super free... lol... now got two major "time waster" on my plan... e rest is to find time to go out wif frenz... i wanna haf gathering wif my pri sch frenz n scouts buddies... n forgetting e most impt one, council outing :) kok n mi also planning to haf welco outing at dec... but yet to decide e program, shall discuss during e camp... hahaz... ok... time to enjoy my first freedom day... no study... yeah!!!

5 more days to go...

2004-11-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

yea... i'm 5 days away from freedom... i can't wait to finish e rest of paper... then can go LTC play like hell... then more outings wif frenz... tinking of go hiking around singapore also... but still looking for partner... maybe can ask eugene they all along... realli miss e scouting days... i miss e hike... too bad LTC camp crashes wif scouts camp, if not can go back n help out... y they muz push e date forward... stupid... realli hate those teacher IC... always like to mess up things... arghzz... scouts troop will be veri gd without those sch admin... how come sch admin always so hard to handle one ar... scouts like tat, council also... so ma fan... irritating...

er... a bit weird now... i'm updating more frequent now than b4 A level... haha... realli nth to do also... at home is confirm cannot do Fmath qns one... i will spend more time scratching my head than writing down my answer... lol... hard to concentrate la... so muz go sch study... tml is sundae... but still going anyway... i wanna train hard on my fmath paper2... there is still hope for A... 5 more days... chiong all e way...

so boring...

2004-11-15T20:19:00.000+08:00

as usual todae went down to sch... actualli not going cause it's holidae but kok already reached sch liaoz... so cannot PS him... but in sch didn't do much things lahz... juz did some stats qns... still got careless mistakes... die... hope tml can avoid those stupid mistakes... scare of paper ever since e prelim... i don't wanna get a B again!!! anyway, i juz got my competition photos... more photos to put on my blog... lol...

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These two r the views of e competition ground from e top of my tower, 15metres above ground... veri nice... *Don't click on e pic if ur internet connection is slow...

Ace Combat 5

2004-11-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

yeah... finalli ace combat 5 is out... at a wrong time, mid of A level... but i still went ahead n play... lol... cannot control myself anymore... it's realli hard to resist e temptation of e best flying simulation game... thanks to my father, i cannot go for my pilot course... so can onli play AC5 lor... at least can see my favourite planes in action... lol... since todae quite free (study break), i made some changes to my layout... got e AC5 wallpaper as my blog header... i find it veri nice... with e plane F-14 as trademark for AC5... an all-rounder plane but i still perfer e superior F-22... lol... anyway i tried to make my layout as close to e game interface as possible... but don't tink is successful... can't get e colour i one... so juz stick to grey to haf e metal feeling ba... for those who like to play flying game, muz go try AC5...

A level...

2004-11-04T18:52:00.000+08:00

The countdown finalli reached zero days n i faced my greatest fear of my JC life, GP!!! D7 throughout for my year2... tink either i CMI or i lazy lahz... but anyway i did my best for e GP todae... i wacked all e ideas i had from all those model essay i read... now wat i worry is whether i'm on point or not... sometimes too excited until out of point also don't noe one... haiz... essay part is up to my luck lahz... but my compre not bad... hehez... i read a model essay on choices b4... so AQ i just wacked everything in... haha... i'm so lucky... i wrote two full pages of AQ... vocab also quite easy... tink can score for e paper... just hope summary n other qns don't pull mi down... ok... now it's time to chiong for math liaoz... next target: straight As...

btw i know my LTC grping le... got paired wif shufen n huishan... tink i going to haf quite a hard time... both i don't noe one... somemore i heard tat shufen is kinda anti-council one... die liaoz... pray no conflict wif her... afterall i quited odac for council one... better don't let her noe abt tat, to keep myself safe... lol... just hope tis camp will be a fun one...

Enlistment

2004-10-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

Finalli got my enlistment letter... 7th of April report in... luckily no NDU... haha... my acting still not bad ar... but e date is realli veri late... most of my frenz r on Jan one... so stupid... i go in on april means i going to come out three months late... arghzz... i rather go in Jan one... stupid MOD... i tink my OCS dream also gone liaoz... cause heard mr lau tat OCS normalli get people frm Jan one... haiz... y i always so suai one... but i don't care liaoz... chiong for OCS... if not, life will be so meaningless lor... normal infantry confirm slack like hell... i rather learn new skills for e two years than slacking throughout... so sian... ok... end of crapping... back to study... i going to finish e physics papers liaoz... jia you x3...

So sian...

2004-10-15T20:45:00.000+08:00

Arghzz.... i totalli bored to death... after whole day of study, my brain can't work at night... can't do paper, can't read notes n can't even play game... my brain juz somehow cannot think... omg... tat's makin mi mad... i noe tat's a lot of work to do but i juz can't finish all of them b4 'A's... i wanna be fully prepared b4 going into e examination hall... but i still haven't reach e stage... now i still haf problem handling Fmath paper1... wth... i realli regret naber work hard during yr1... ended up now haf to do extra work to build e foundation... until now, i haf been doing Fmath papers onli... totalli neglected math 9233, physics n GP... e point is not enough time n i haf to concentrate on my weakest sub first... but... i wanna score for physics also... getting A for physics is my dream... headache... which one shld i put in more effort... furthermore, my GP is getting bad to worst... time is realli running short... i'm stress... how i wish i can study more at nite... but i noe it's wrong n i muz rest... i realli don't noe wat to do... it will be so gd if time can be bought... but i tink i juz haf to accept e fact tat life is always a race against time... juz hope i can win tis important race... juz hope... ya... hope more... n hope... life will go faster if u juz hope... get down to work...

Stress ar....

2004-10-12T21:14:00.000+08:00

wahz... i can't believe how stress i am now... ever since got back e prelim result, i'm study like mad... i start to get sick of computer... everytime play game cannot last more than 1hrs... which is totalli, absolutely weird... now i spent most of my time stoning at home... just can't get myself started on doing papers... tink i can onli do them in sch... home is e worst place to study... tink i going mad soon...

time realli flies... left 22 more days to go... i doubt myself can get fully prepared b4 e exam comes... especialli after getting my result slip todae... totalli CMI... my GP got 13 percentile... tink is beyond hope... now haf to go e GP workshop... n of course one on one confrontation wif mr chong... haiz... tink now e situation is liked wat mr soh said to mi todae... just like betting... either E8, D7 or C6... just wish tat last min work can give mi a higher chance of getting C6 n above... as my three A level subs... Getting ABC is possible but... again liked wat soh said... i can "bia" for triple A... however, i don't noe whether i can handle e stress or not lor... scared i may go mad at any moment... haiz...

until now i still not quite sure wat kind of course i wanna get... but i tink i will to e plan... everything up to my GP... if i get D7, i shall go engineering... if C6 n better, i will look for better courses... soh also agree wif tis idea... so tink it's time to realli do last min work for my GP liaoz... although engineering is always my target but i tink i shld try out smthing new... don't wanna follow my bro footsteps anymore... muz get better result then my bro... 3A n at least a C6 for my GP... these 22 days shall decide my fate...

LTC pre-camp

2004-10-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

Todae went for e ltc facil training... had some fun over at e moe campsite... morning we had e sea activity, kayaking... veri long naber do liaoz... got chance to try single kayak somemore... but haf to guide liping along, so i took e double kayaks wif her... but halfway through e sea act, i forced her to change to single kayak... lol... no choice la... she muz get use to it... if not, throw face in front of trainees... anyway, in e end i didn't get to do single kayak... sian... but nvm... on a actual day got chance...

after sea is land activity... do all e climbing stuff lahz... don't quite enjoy it... most of e time we r talking abt safety... no much chance to do e actual climbing... but i also didn't wanna climb too much lahz... actualli i wasn't feeling quite well... tink is dehydrate... forgot to bring my waterbottle... my fault... luckily, i did't faint... can feel tat my fitness is getting worse... very long naber exercise... too lazy... haha...

e training ended at around 4... then on e way back, we had a lame jokes competition on e bus... oh well... it clearly shows tat mine n benwei era is over liaoz... lol... we r totalli trashed by beisi... her jokes r realli cold until e air-con malfunction... no wonder they called her e snow queen... after reaching serangoon, had dinner wif kok they all... then i went to upper to check my pc... n surprisingly it functioning well without any repairs... tat's realli stupid... now i realli don't noe wat to do wif my com... seem like it just like to "hang" in my hse... stupid com... oh btw... i using my bro's laptop to type tis entry... not tat stupid com... it still resting at e com shop... tml then collect back... i was too tired to carry it back...

Worst result i ever had...

2004-09-28T17:37:00.000+08:00

haiz... prelim result is finalli back... e result is worse than i expected... as expected, i still failed my GP, 41% onli... my class onli 7 ppls pass out of 18... mr chong also give up scolding us liaoz... highest of e class is onli 49.5 lor... tat's how pathetic my class is... tink mostly is cause of e compre lahz... totalli screwed up...

as for C math, screwed up also... got B, 68%... first time getting B for major exams... realli throw face... most of my classmates got A... i made too much mistakes liao lahz... shldn't haf tried e mechanics in paper2... if not, i can score more for my paper2... how stupid i am... haiz... then F math is killer la... also i didn't faithfully go do all prelim papers... so ended up failed e paper... onli got 41%... first time fail in major exam...

lastly is physics... well... tink is e onli subject i quite satify wif lahz... paper1 - 21/30, paper2 - 44.5/90, paper3 - 61.5/110, paper 4 - 26.5/34... paper 5 not yet got back... but most prob can get a C grade... just pray hard tat paper 5 won't pull down too much... even though C grade is not veri high... but for a combined sci student like mi, is alreadi quite gd lahz...

most prob overall can get BCO... faraway frm my target, ACD... todae saw mr neo n he also tink is not gd lor... so muz work harder... die ar... left 36days... stress... muz chiong liao... nth but juz do prelim papers, prelim papers n more prelim papers!!! muz get 3As for A level... follow e hornet motto... can do, no fear!!!

Council Outing

2004-09-26T15:38:00.000+08:00

omg... i feel so guilty now... i put my class people aeroplane... i spent my whole day wif my council frenz n didn't go for e chalet... junyue yesterdae change e meeting time to 2.30pm... same time as my council meeting time... so planned to watch movie wif council... then try to rush down to chalet... but ended up i didn't... cause too far liaoz... then i too lazy to go down... die liaoz... mondae sure get killed by them...

anyway... tis time council outing got 9 ppls... those standard ppls... febri, junhui, kok, shyuan, chris, shuhui n wanwei... we went PS to watch resident evil... ok larhz... not veri nice... heavy actions plus mild horror la... but e storyline quite obvious to mi lahz... cause got play e game... so a bit sian... all my entertainment is got frm wanwei onli... listen to all her lame jokes throughout e movie... still e same coldness... haha... e movie ended quite fast... one n a half hour... so we went to play 1+hr pool... then go eat dinner... i can feel my pool skill coming back... lol... at least i won some match... i realised i hardly can hit e green ball in pocket... cause wanwei was wearing green jacket... suai ar... haha... tat's wat mi n kok tink...

after dinner... we went to chinatown... chris was whining for it for e whole dae... at first we all quite unwilling lahz... but ended up we had a fun nite there... quite re nao but not veri crowded... not squeeze like mad... we did a lot of window shopping n received some black faces frm e shopkeepers... lol... but we also heck lahz... saw quite a few nice things... actualli mi n kok spotted some nice handmade bookmark n tinking of buying for welcorians one... but chris jie zu xian den... bought for aseth liaoz... ended up we didn't get anything for welcorians... wasted... e whole nite onli got febri, chris n kok got buy things... we walked until 10smthing, had a mini-supper then went off liaoz... reach home nearly 12 liaoz... luckily mum is oversea now... if not, consecutive 2 late nites sure get nag by her... haha...